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everybody has issues.
i guess, my issues are quite obvious.
i never really had a father, i don't have an older brother either, so, naturally, this is what i'm seeking in my men - paternal qualities, ability to patronize me, which i enjoy no matter how mature and independent i may seem to be. the problem is that most guys around my age are incapable to do so. this leaves me no other option than to switch to older men, which i seem to have started - the man i fancy at the moment is almost 15 years older than me.
but, i can't get rid of the feeling that there's a twist hidden somewhere in my judgement and behaviour and i can't find out what it is.
i guess, my issues are quite obvious.
i never really had a father, i don't have an older brother either, so, naturally, this is what i'm seeking in my men - paternal qualities, ability to patronize me, which i enjoy no matter how mature and independent i may seem to be. the problem is that most guys around my age are incapable to do so. this leaves me no other option than to switch to older men, which i seem to have started - the man i fancy at the moment is almost 15 years older than me.
but, i can't get rid of the feeling that there's a twist hidden somewhere in my judgement and behaviour and i can't find out what it is.