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Tonight has been a fairly productive night.
I watched Dexter and The Walking Dead, which was a nice relaxing time.
Then I buckled down and began studying for my exam on the 16th.
I also began my homework that's due in a week.
I have a horrible time sitting down and actually doing homework.
It's not that I have anything better to do or that I forget about it...
it's just I don't really want to take the time to do it.
But I'm glad I did tonight and it wasn't painful or anything.
In other news, work is still edging me into intolerable-ness.
I've noticed my patience slipping away from me the more time I spend there.
As much as I try to stay positive and choose to be happy...
it's becoming much MUCH more difficult to do so.
A lot of the time I feel ready to snap.
I'm almost constantly ranting in my head about how sub-human this work makes me feel.
The feeling that I can do nothing, but work work work is driving me crazy.
Especially since I know there's really no reason for it.
There's no reason that i can't take the 30 seconds to text someone here and there.
In fact it helps me concentrate because it takes my mind away from my work so I have to refocus on it instead of falling into a lull of the same thing.
My Supervisor is constantly contradicting herself... it drives me crazy.
I feel like I'm constantly being lied to and that... hurts.
This job hurts. In so many ways.
I want to get my Smart Serve and Ontario Food Handler's Certificate and work in the food industry.
Either as a Server or Bartender.
Yes, I'm aware that that means no more free weekends and that kinda kills me inside, but on the other hand...
There are other days in the week and I can learn to enjoy those again.
I watched Dexter and The Walking Dead, which was a nice relaxing time.
Then I buckled down and began studying for my exam on the 16th.
I also began my homework that's due in a week.
I have a horrible time sitting down and actually doing homework.
It's not that I have anything better to do or that I forget about it...
it's just I don't really want to take the time to do it.
But I'm glad I did tonight and it wasn't painful or anything.
In other news, work is still edging me into intolerable-ness.
I've noticed my patience slipping away from me the more time I spend there.
As much as I try to stay positive and choose to be happy...
it's becoming much MUCH more difficult to do so.
A lot of the time I feel ready to snap.
I'm almost constantly ranting in my head about how sub-human this work makes me feel.
The feeling that I can do nothing, but work work work is driving me crazy.
Especially since I know there's really no reason for it.
There's no reason that i can't take the 30 seconds to text someone here and there.
In fact it helps me concentrate because it takes my mind away from my work so I have to refocus on it instead of falling into a lull of the same thing.
My Supervisor is constantly contradicting herself... it drives me crazy.
I feel like I'm constantly being lied to and that... hurts.
This job hurts. In so many ways.
I want to get my Smart Serve and Ontario Food Handler's Certificate and work in the food industry.
Either as a Server or Bartender.
Yes, I'm aware that that means no more free weekends and that kinda kills me inside, but on the other hand...
There are other days in the week and I can learn to enjoy those again.