love ... a many speldor thing...
this summer i fell in love.... with myself... it's s nice feeling.. contentment.... i've never felt this way about who i am before... i've always liked to think of myself as a rather confident seeming person, but inside, i have always had these self-esteem issues... maybe it comes from being a perfectionist, or maybe a masochist, but for whatever reason, i've had these problems....this summer, however, i have fallen in love with who i am both inside and out...working out is now what it should be, a stress reliever, and a way to keep in shape, not something that i do, because i feel like if i don't i will get fat.... or from my mind, fatter than i already am.... but somewhere along the way, i love my body... it's a nice feeling, confidence...the world doesn't seem like such a big place, and dreams don't seem impossible, because you have yourself to rely on...
today is going to be a long day... two showings of the monkey king, and the evening performance of pericles.... oh well, i guess it's somewhat my fault, not getting in bed until 2am... but i watched matrix reloaded for the first time, and wasn't all that impressed... in fact, it kind of got on my nerves, by i stuck it out, in an attempt to grow to enjoy it.... kids, kids, and more kids.... oh well... it's just par for the course....
today is going to be a long day... two showings of the monkey king, and the evening performance of pericles.... oh well, i guess it's somewhat my fault, not getting in bed until 2am... but i watched matrix reloaded for the first time, and wasn't all that impressed... in fact, it kind of got on my nerves, by i stuck it out, in an attempt to grow to enjoy it.... kids, kids, and more kids.... oh well... it's just par for the course....