what you think about me, is your business, what i KNOW about me, is mine
it's quite amusing to me....i'm nine hours away, in a completely different state, and people take it upon themselves to jump to assumptions about the situation at hand... it's like i had to end it to get treated the way that i deserve to be treated..... i know a lot of it is the distance and i understand the demons from the past, but that doesn't excuse certain things... and i'm not completely innocent either, i said horrible things too, but there's a point when you end the hurt... it's actually somewhat of relief, i don't have to worry about the next fight, or the next time that i hurt because of words, and the tears... have stopped.... i miss him, and i know that i still care about him... but we're not good for one another right now... there's no other reason, there's no one else, and the fact that someone that i haven't talked to in months is making these assumptions about me makes me realize how much i want to get out of the damn city of montgomery, go on with my life, and get moving with my dreams..... there's nothing more for me there.... i know that people will always talk shit about you and stab you in the back, but when i was growing up, i never had this problem... it's now at the age when it shouldn't be happening as often that it happens more... is it really that important to fabricate things about someone else so that either you can feel better, or you can make someone else doubt something that they shouldn't be doubting?? i don't have to justify myself to anyone... i don't have to defend my reputation to anyone... and frankly, as long as i'm not compromising my morals, or who i am, then only i should really be concerned with what my reasons were for my actions... i am my own person, don't pretend to know my mind, or what i'm thinking... don't pretend to know my reasons behind things, because if i wanted you to know anything more than what you do, I would inform you.... so cease the pretensive assumptions...