Whew...
I am sooo glad I have tomorrow off... I hope I can hang out with Nate since he is off work too, after his reunion of course... I hope he doesn't change his mind and say something like, "I'm too worn out" lol. The next day we both have off again is next sunday maybe. *sigh* I have a feeling he doesn't want to hang with me.. and it makes me sad... but... if he doesn't want to I won't force him. I guess I will just wait and see what happens... but I dunno... I can't wait forever... and I'm just really confused and beating myself up over this... He is really hard to read... Sometimes... even though I know him really well, I still have no idea what he is thinking... Sometimes I feel like he's avoiding me or he just doesn't care... I know he does care... and that is what is so confusing... He's not telling me what is on his mind... I wish I could get inside his head for just a min. To at least find out something... lol I am soo impatient when it comes to this I know that, but I can't help it... I'm the type who wants what I want when I want it... and I'm not afraid to go for it... He's more of the type who sits back and well...waits for something to happen... I just dunno what he's waiting for now... He wont let me know... UGH! Someone slap me please! Hmm, I guess I will be a rock and be mellow and carefree, for as long as I can be... I will think about how I'm gunna spend my summer then wonder who I will spend it with and where and ... then wonder ... my mind will wonder... UGH! Nathan you see what you do to me... lol. Your messin with my head lol.