I'm sick.

[april12th]

I'm absolutely and utterly sick and tired of the male sex. Completely. No matter what I do, nothing is ever right. I know there isn't anything wrong with me. I'm pretty happy with the way I am, and who I am.. but god. Guys. I can't stand them. Either all they want from you is sex, and the ones who don't are so shallow that they won't actually date you because they want someone who looks like a fucking supermodel. I'm sorry to say, but most of those girls don't want just average guys.. they want guys who also look like supermodels, and if they do act like they want you, they're more than likely just using you for attention. It's just so weird how people are, and how they think, and what they're attracted to. I honestly don't think I'm a picky person at all. One thing I am is a good girl, who absolutely won't let herself be used for sex. I don't care how much you tell me that I'm different, I don't care what you say.. I don't want words. I want actions. I want proof. I'm not going to be someone's one night stand. I'm just sick and tired of the way things play out, and the way that most guys turn out to be. I mean, I'm not bashing guys here one bit. I know there are girls out there who are just like this.. but I'm not one of them, and I think I need to be treated with respect. I think I deserve to have someone to make me a happier person. I think I deserve a best friend and a companion.. but I know that I'm never going to find one here. I'm not asking for a serious relationship, I just want to have fun.. and I don't want sex to be the only reason someone wants to spend time with me. It's pathetic.

I know I'm not perfect. I know I'm not up to most all guys standards around here. But god, I just wish people would grow up a little bit. Quit being sluts.

-Ashley.