23 days!
I've got less than 3 weeks left and I'll be out of here. It feels so weird saying that. I've been waiting for a year and a half and working my ass off to go on this trip, and it feels so weird that it's finally approaching.
I had a pretty fun weekend. Spending time with Andrea is always fun. Saturday afternoon was amazing. I could never imagine how much fun it is just to sit with someone in the park and listen to them play music and just relax.. well until you realize the group of kids got off the swings, then you run for them like crazy and swing like you're actually a kid again. I guess doing that made me realize how grown up I actually am now. In exactly 1 month I'll be 18. How fucking weird is that? It just freaks me out. I don't want to grow up yet. Just like I told Nate saturday, I'll probably end up having 3 or 4 kids, and when we go to the park, instead of sitting with the other mom's or just sitting back and watching I'll be running around like crazy, acting just like I'm one of the kids.
I'm happy. I'm content. I'm ready for that feeling again though.. the feeling of butterflies.. I need that again, just once before I leave this place. And not one sided butterflies either. I want mutual butterflies and kisses that make you shiver all over. I want my last months here to be spent happily, even though I'll know I'm going to have to leave that person. I just want memories.
He's so fucking gorgeous.. and funny.. god.
<3 ashley.
I had a pretty fun weekend. Spending time with Andrea is always fun. Saturday afternoon was amazing. I could never imagine how much fun it is just to sit with someone in the park and listen to them play music and just relax.. well until you realize the group of kids got off the swings, then you run for them like crazy and swing like you're actually a kid again. I guess doing that made me realize how grown up I actually am now. In exactly 1 month I'll be 18. How fucking weird is that? It just freaks me out. I don't want to grow up yet. Just like I told Nate saturday, I'll probably end up having 3 or 4 kids, and when we go to the park, instead of sitting with the other mom's or just sitting back and watching I'll be running around like crazy, acting just like I'm one of the kids.
I'm happy. I'm content. I'm ready for that feeling again though.. the feeling of butterflies.. I need that again, just once before I leave this place. And not one sided butterflies either. I want mutual butterflies and kisses that make you shiver all over. I want my last months here to be spent happily, even though I'll know I'm going to have to leave that person. I just want memories.
He's so fucking gorgeous.. and funny.. god.
<3 ashley.