Sigh
Do you ever feel like your life is caving in around you? Like there is just nothing you can do to make it right? It just seems to me like I can't get anything right these days. I was upset about something, so I talked to Chase about it like I normally would, and did it help? No, it simply exacerbated the problem. My timing is always wrong and I just can't figure it out.
And I feel like such a failure, because even when I try to fix things it doesn't work. Chase thinks that I just take things too personally, but is that it? Is it that I take it too personally or is it simply that I can't do it? It always seems to me like it's always just wrong.
The weather today is perfect. It's raining, cool, and absolutely disgusting. Suits my feelings to a T. And I'm not even sure why. Am I simply starving for attention and affection? Why can't I just take what I'm given and be happy with it? I suppose it's not human nature to be that way, but it would make life so much easier. And am I really asking so much? I don't know.