Happy New Year
Once again, it's been a low key couple of weeks. Unlike working day on day off schedule as I had the last 2 years around this time, it has been half day work with 2 four day weekends back to back. I really should be exercising more to prepare for my PT test but it just hasn't been happening. I know there have been so many things on my mind lately that has been bothering me. Some I am aware of, some I am not fully conscious of.
I believe one of the things is that if I were still married, today would be my 17 year anniversary. Since I'm no longer married, I know it is a very small piece of the puzzle.
I know another piece of the puzzle, or even several pieces, have to do with the relationship with the new girlfriend. Right now I am only exposed to her kids in small doses. I just think about how different they are from John. I also have more problems relating to a young girl compared to a young boy. I also had a dream the other night that I deployed before her and we wouldn't be in the same place. I try to think about the now though I know we've both considered what is coming down the pipe. We ran a few hypothetical questions by each other the other night, including engagement or past that.
I also know part of my issues are stemming from not having a car here. I had expected to deploy much sooner. So I really should only get a point A to B type car. Or try to hold off.
The vice is also on my mind. Money and bills. Those things. Missing folks and things from Japan.
And there are always the things that stemmed from a joke on making commitments and not resolutions.
So remember, 1600x1200 is a resolution. Make commitments.
I believe one of the things is that if I were still married, today would be my 17 year anniversary. Since I'm no longer married, I know it is a very small piece of the puzzle.
I know another piece of the puzzle, or even several pieces, have to do with the relationship with the new girlfriend. Right now I am only exposed to her kids in small doses. I just think about how different they are from John. I also have more problems relating to a young girl compared to a young boy. I also had a dream the other night that I deployed before her and we wouldn't be in the same place. I try to think about the now though I know we've both considered what is coming down the pipe. We ran a few hypothetical questions by each other the other night, including engagement or past that.
I also know part of my issues are stemming from not having a car here. I had expected to deploy much sooner. So I really should only get a point A to B type car. Or try to hold off.
The vice is also on my mind. Money and bills. Those things. Missing folks and things from Japan.
And there are always the things that stemmed from a joke on making commitments and not resolutions.
So remember, 1600x1200 is a resolution. Make commitments.