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I've been in sort of a funk for the past few weeks, but I'm coming out of it. I'll post in a few days when I feel like I have my shit together.
However, I must say this: I have some really great friends. Reasons for tonight:
1) Kait (from LJ) took me out to dinner tonight and gave me what to her was only a small gift, but to me felt like being totally spoiled. I feel like I do a lot for my friends, and recently I've just felt like they haven't really been around when I've needed them. This is really because, when I really need someone, I tend to shut down and shut up--not really a way to alert my friends to the fact that I need some support, I know. But tonight Kait somehow sensed that I needed a friend--she listened to me vent, treated me to a wonderful dinner, talked about random fun stuff, and was there for me in ways I doubt she really considered--she was just being who she is, a naturally wonderful friend. On top of that, she gave me this excellent gift of socks, undies, and Canadian over the counter meds (only nurses and doctors' children, eh? lol!) that to her seemed like nothing, but to me meant a great deal. After she left, I was just sitting in my room looking at the stuff she gave me and grinning. It wasn't just about the fact that she gave me something material--it's about the fact that she thought of me (before her trip to NYC, even!) and gave me a really fun gift that I would have never bought for myself. I just felt spoiled rotten! It's great :) Sometimes I feel like I'm always the one giving to my friends--and I LOVE doing it, don't get me wrong, but during those times I need some attention, too, and she was there for me when I needed a friend, perhaps without even realizing it. So, Kait, thanks--you're a wonderful person and a truly amazing friend, I'm lucky to have met you!
2) One of the people I work with at school for the non-profit I help run sent me a short e-mail, but it really made me feel wonderful. She's a classmate and peer, but she's also about ten years older than me with much more life experience--including many experiences that I'm rather jealous of. All in all, I respect her a great deal, so her opinion of me is very important to me (as one might expect). Well, this is the text of the e-mail she sent me: "I love the way your energy and enthusiasm shine through in everything you do, Laura. It really picks me up every time I see you or hear from you!" That's it--short, sweet, not a big deal to her--but it really made me feel as if, even when I'm feeling depressed, I'm valuable to at least one person.
Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks to all my wonderful friends--but to especially note how great these two particular people made me feel tonight. I'm sorry for my absence, I'm returning to normal, and thus likely to LJ as well (in a few days). Thanks for reading! :)
However, I must say this: I have some really great friends. Reasons for tonight:
1) Kait (from LJ) took me out to dinner tonight and gave me what to her was only a small gift, but to me felt like being totally spoiled. I feel like I do a lot for my friends, and recently I've just felt like they haven't really been around when I've needed them. This is really because, when I really need someone, I tend to shut down and shut up--not really a way to alert my friends to the fact that I need some support, I know. But tonight Kait somehow sensed that I needed a friend--she listened to me vent, treated me to a wonderful dinner, talked about random fun stuff, and was there for me in ways I doubt she really considered--she was just being who she is, a naturally wonderful friend. On top of that, she gave me this excellent gift of socks, undies, and Canadian over the counter meds (only nurses and doctors' children, eh? lol!) that to her seemed like nothing, but to me meant a great deal. After she left, I was just sitting in my room looking at the stuff she gave me and grinning. It wasn't just about the fact that she gave me something material--it's about the fact that she thought of me (before her trip to NYC, even!) and gave me a really fun gift that I would have never bought for myself. I just felt spoiled rotten! It's great :) Sometimes I feel like I'm always the one giving to my friends--and I LOVE doing it, don't get me wrong, but during those times I need some attention, too, and she was there for me when I needed a friend, perhaps without even realizing it. So, Kait, thanks--you're a wonderful person and a truly amazing friend, I'm lucky to have met you!
2) One of the people I work with at school for the non-profit I help run sent me a short e-mail, but it really made me feel wonderful. She's a classmate and peer, but she's also about ten years older than me with much more life experience--including many experiences that I'm rather jealous of. All in all, I respect her a great deal, so her opinion of me is very important to me (as one might expect). Well, this is the text of the e-mail she sent me: "I love the way your energy and enthusiasm shine through in everything you do, Laura. It really picks me up every time I see you or hear from you!" That's it--short, sweet, not a big deal to her--but it really made me feel as if, even when I'm feeling depressed, I'm valuable to at least one person.
Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks to all my wonderful friends--but to especially note how great these two particular people made me feel tonight. I'm sorry for my absence, I'm returning to normal, and thus likely to LJ as well (in a few days). Thanks for reading! :)