Day 2...
The past few days I have found out a lot about my father that he never wanted me to know....a lot that I never needed to know... Well, my little brother and sister are in town now. Calling them in NY was the hardest phone call I ever had to make my entire life... I went to my father's house today. When we got there, we saw that the city of fort collins had shoveled his driveway, and then left a ticket on his door...we were pissed to say the least. The first thing I did when I got there was check on my dad's fish. I had the feeling that nobody had bothered feeding them since Saturday. One of the fish died during the course of the week, and I had to flush it. I made sure to feed the rest though. The police or whoever cleaned up any mess that might have been unbearable for us to witness... They also took pretty much all the evidence of the "crime scene". We searched his entire house, and didn't really find anything....except until we checked his computer. We checked his email history and found out that apparently within the past few months he had orders thousands of dollars of perscription drugs from Canada and Europe via the internet. He started out slowly, with just one order of pills....but then it got to the point before he died that he had made multiple accounts and multiple different websites so that he could get about 10 times the recommended amount of these drugs.
I hate this...it disgusts me. I can't believe that things like this really go on. I hate how these online "doctors" care more about making money, than saving people's lives. There was NOTHING wrong with my Dad that he needed these drugs for. He started small, then got quickly addicted. The autopsy showed that at the time of his death, there was nothing physically wrong with my father that should have caused him to die.
When we tried to access these webpages that he had purchased the drugs from, some of them weren't even there anymore. And the rest had maximum security so that by just typing in the URL, nobody would really be able to know what the website was for. We just immediately asked for a password. No main page, no formal webpage layout or anything. It was like my dad had tapped into a previously unknown corner of the internet that I really wish never existed...
While I was at his house I was able to contain any emotions of sadness I felt....I finally let all that loose when I was home in my bed crying uncontrollably in Paige's arms...
I hate this...it disgusts me. I can't believe that things like this really go on. I hate how these online "doctors" care more about making money, than saving people's lives. There was NOTHING wrong with my Dad that he needed these drugs for. He started small, then got quickly addicted. The autopsy showed that at the time of his death, there was nothing physically wrong with my father that should have caused him to die.
When we tried to access these webpages that he had purchased the drugs from, some of them weren't even there anymore. And the rest had maximum security so that by just typing in the URL, nobody would really be able to know what the website was for. We just immediately asked for a password. No main page, no formal webpage layout or anything. It was like my dad had tapped into a previously unknown corner of the internet that I really wish never existed...
While I was at his house I was able to contain any emotions of sadness I felt....I finally let all that loose when I was home in my bed crying uncontrollably in Paige's arms...