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livejournal! i'm don't remember what my last entry was -- i am sure it was long and mopey -- so let's have some happiness for once:
i got to spend a very awesome week with the lovely crackedeggie i feel as though i owe her a billion apologies for making her fly all the way to bum-fuck indiana just to hang out with me (guys, it's winter so she didn't even get to ( Read more... )
i got to spend a very awesome week with the lovely crackedeggie i feel as though i owe her a billion apologies for making her fly all the way to bum-fuck indiana just to hang out with me (guys, it's winter so she didn't even get to ( Read more... )
OKAY BUT SERIOUSLY, um. man, i would take you up on that offer to-fucking-morrow if i didn't have such a shitty conscience. i want to, i really do, and i considered nudging you a bit with a "steeeeeeeeeeeeeeph, you wanna house me, right? right? i'm a delight?" the thing is that i feel bad about wanting to leave. i know i'm perpetually annoyed with one of my roommates, and i know i'll be driven up a wall and uncomfortable, but i feel like i have some obligation to our friendship to stay. or something? i've already told andrea i can't stay if she doesn't find another roommate and she didn't take it well, so i assume if i tell her i don't want to stay ESPECIALLY because she's found another roommate i'm afraid i'll hurt her feelings. or, worst of all, she'll get mad at me. i don't like mad, steph!
although i know i should do what's best for me. and she knows i hate the location and the fact that i can't fucking go anywhere without and did i mention i am going to go MAD WITH RAGE one of these days? argh argh argh BEING AN ADULT MAN IT SUCKS.
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I totally understand the not wanting to leave your friend thing, I really do. I mean, you've known her forever, and that kind of thing trumps a lot of things, including insane christianity. but like, she's got friends and stuff to live with her, right? and the other roomies are leaving, and you shouldn't feel bad about shouldering their decisions, you know? you can let roommate know that you'll still be friends with her and will still hang out and etc. etc, still mooch rides back home, blah blah.
i mean, i don't want to like, pressure you into living with steph. and there are some serious drawbacks to living with me: i have no car. i mean, i have to either walk or take the bus to get groceries and stuff. you know how sad my life is. i mooch rides from people a lot, and the friends that drive me to the store would absolutely take you too, but that's something to think about. Also, I listen to some really shitty music sometimes. :/
I'm not gonna lie, it would make a huge fucking difference in my quality of life and being able to not starve to death if i had a roommate, but I'm too insane to live with someone I don't know. It would mean a lot to me to have you living here.
Although it probably means a lot to Andrea to have you living with her, so. There's that.
I don't want to pressure you, man. And you do have a long time to decide and weigh your options and stuff.
But this will be your last year in school, right? (If you take summer classes, you graduate in may?) If there's a time to start making grown up decisions, it's probably now, even though being an adult SUCKS and i mostly try to avoid doing that.
Andrea is your friend, and she'll be pissed for a bit, but she will get over it. She's pissed at you half the time anyways ha ha.
You should make the decision that is best for you. it might be staying in that house, it might be living with Steph (who is awesome), it might be some third thing that could involve jared padalecki. idk. but you shouldn't let whether or not she'll be mad at you keep you living in a house that you're not happy in. like, this is WHERE YOU LIVE. that's a huge part of your life and how happy you are and shit.
also: i will never make you leave the couch. unless i want to nap there. but even then.
THUS ENDETH THE LONGEST COMMENT EVER.
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