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My subconscious heard my plea for less awful dreams and responded with one in which I killed five men, graphically, including one where I hacked off his face with a small knife; where I was subject to not one but two back-alley abortions, including in the second one an abrupt vaginal exam which I distinctly remember FEELING; a continual flip-flopping on the part of the narrative as to whether I was dating Jess or Katherine (first girlfriend); the end of civilisation again with murky aftermath; and a version of London's docklands where all the warehouses had no fronts so you could see into the offices, and everything was slightly flooded.

Graphic facial mutilation, murder, and abortion with attendant graphic miscarriagey bits and vag exam WERE NOT WHAT I WAS AFTER, SUBCONSCIOUS.