no, agoraphobia, this is a bad time for you

[apiphile]

Tutor has a gig tonight. I would like to see college people. Be enthusiastic. However, I instead feel like an emotional pancake and haven't had the necessary enthusiasm to write an essay outline of five lines, phone for potential work, or do much except stare, which doesn't bode well for potential Going Out.

Would like to pull duvet over head and hate everyone and everything forever, or failing that take a lot of drugs until I stop being ME and start being someone who wants to go outside.

AWWWWWWWW YEAAAAAAAAAAAAH VALIDATION DEFICIT BRAINFAIL. BEING CRAZY WINS.