she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me
things that were important to me then doesn't seem so important now, this cycle doesn't end. i had an enlightning night w/ a 15 year old girl last night. we were soaking wet and driving in the middle of a thunderstorm. she reminded me of a girl i was once in love w/ and we talked about so many deep things. of course there was no heartfelt feelings for we both knew that it would never happen. the situation felt romantic but there was no romance between us. it made me feel great b/c it reminded me how it was like to share something so magnificient (the storm, the chilly wetness, the mood, the atmosphere) w/ another girl. i am very greatful to open my eyes again to how great things can be w/ a girl yet i feel kind of empty for not letting myself be involved in anything like this. i feel that i have been missing out on the incredible moments that can be shared w/ a girlfriend. i am a hopeless romantic who refuses to let romance happen.