it's lightning somewhere
well, everythings bliss. even though nothing within these past two weeks has gone right, and i have been getting bad news left and right, and i have been feeling way too vulnerable, and it has practically been one thing after another;i am still grateful and strangley optimistic. i am feeling more as an independent person w/ many opportunities ahead. i was sad for many reasons other than myself, but now i am realizing that it is a very good thing. i noticed that i have seen so many brighter sides to each situation and that i have always been that way. i always tend to find something good in something bad. i realize that nothing is perfect and that happiness has to be made, not found. everything is a challenge to me and when i fail, which has happend so much lately, i look for the good in it and learn from it. i guess thats pretty much common sense, but i don't see too many people doing it and it makes me wonder if they actually are. by no means do i find myself better than anyone, i feel that so many things can be learned from everyone and i love it. i just hope that i never lose optimism, imagination, and the ability to learn from everything. i think way too much and i wish that i would let myself open up to someone, but i can't b/c of a fear of letting someone in too deep. it happend once and it crushed me afterwards b/c i had fallen in love w/ that person but she felt differently. we were the closests of friends and i chased her for two years, but i don't see it as a waste, just another lesson w/in many lessons and i am greatful to have gone through that. i've gotta go, i left the gate open......LATER!!!!