(no subject)
keeping everything locked up;
with that oh-so-convincing smile,
everything is all right.
and i'm always on the lookout
for that straw that will break my back.
(and i really thought i was doing so much better)
maybe i am. maybe it will take longer than i thought;
a little bit of learning, a little bit of growing.
this is not unbreakable.
but gosh, it sure seems like it sometimes.
dreams wake me in the middle of the night
and i cry underneath the faucet,
so that i can't tell the difference between
tears and running water.
and i've gotten so good at this
that i even believe myself sometimes.
♥