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i drew something very awesome today. it has a background and a meaning and everything! i'm quite impressed with myself. i've noticed lately that my artwork has been lacking severely, and i figured out just last night it's due to my lack of emotion put into a drawing. most times i'll just start drawing a character for no reason. they lack facial expression and pose. no backgrounds were drawn. i realized this while thinking about what i've been feeling lately. i'm terrible with words, and as much as i'd love to be able to write the words on my heart, i suck at it. i could work on it, but then again... anyway, so, since i can't write worth a damn, i need to be able to draw my feelings. it was difficult to realize that i needed to feel the feeling in order to draw it, which makes me sound retarded, but, my feelings are so grey and muted that i was trying to only think of the feeling, and not actually feel it.
working back towards realism has been slow. most of my recent pieces look like crosses between anime and reality, which is neat in of itself, but is not where i want to stop. but i probably won't progress more unless i go out and draw what i see. and i don't forsee that happening anytime soon.
i need to start drawing males. drawing the female form has been fun and i can do it well, but all my male faces and figures look either femmy, evil, or both. it's kinda annoying.
happiness comes around very rarely lately. i choose not to feel anger. or hatred. i just don't see the point. and very few things come around lately that make me feel anything. dull dull dull.
i hardly ever say what i mean. and when i want to say something that i do mean, i don't have the words. when i'm sarcastic, i sound true. when i'm true, i sound sarcastic. what a dilemma!
ugh, i didn't go to bed last night. i'm gonna go pass out now.
working back towards realism has been slow. most of my recent pieces look like crosses between anime and reality, which is neat in of itself, but is not where i want to stop. but i probably won't progress more unless i go out and draw what i see. and i don't forsee that happening anytime soon.
i need to start drawing males. drawing the female form has been fun and i can do it well, but all my male faces and figures look either femmy, evil, or both. it's kinda annoying.
happiness comes around very rarely lately. i choose not to feel anger. or hatred. i just don't see the point. and very few things come around lately that make me feel anything. dull dull dull.
i hardly ever say what i mean. and when i want to say something that i do mean, i don't have the words. when i'm sarcastic, i sound true. when i'm true, i sound sarcastic. what a dilemma!
ugh, i didn't go to bed last night. i'm gonna go pass out now.