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i've had this cold/flu for 2 1/2 weeks now, and it doesn't show any signs of letting up. in fact, it has made me lose some control over my bladder, which disturbs me just about as much as it disturbs you. my coughing isn't letting up, but now i'm hardly coughing up anything at all. it's like i went from being productive to not being productive. my cold and hold flashes come and stay longer, and are more chillier and hotter than they were before. i think the part of the cold that pisses me off the most is that i cannot breathe through my nose properly. one nostril is always clogged, and that makes the other nostril extremely dry and painful to breathe through. i end up breathing through my mouth, which dries my mouth and throat, and i'm sure it doesn't help my irritated throat and congestion problem. and it seems like there is currently no reason why i'm coughing. *sigh* this has to be the worst cold/flu i've had in a long, long time, if not in my existence altogether.
zach came by today and took more of his stuff. it will probably sound pathetic, but i'm sad he took his blanket. :( it was comforting to curl up in. i love him so much... i don't understand the way he has been treating me. i just don't understand why. i thought he loved me. why did he lie to me? i can't believe he honestly loved me at all with the way he acted.
went to target orientation, which was a waste of my time. got next weeks schedule already. i work 3 days, 8 hours each day. i hope i put in more hours than that, 'cause it's gonna take more hours than that to pay rent. well... hopefully costco will hire me, 'cause even if they dick me on hours, at least i get paid a lot. $10/hour. that's not bad at all. ugh. i just... need to get my life back in order again. i wish it wasn't so hard...
zach came by today and took more of his stuff. it will probably sound pathetic, but i'm sad he took his blanket. :( it was comforting to curl up in. i love him so much... i don't understand the way he has been treating me. i just don't understand why. i thought he loved me. why did he lie to me? i can't believe he honestly loved me at all with the way he acted.
went to target orientation, which was a waste of my time. got next weeks schedule already. i work 3 days, 8 hours each day. i hope i put in more hours than that, 'cause it's gonna take more hours than that to pay rent. well... hopefully costco will hire me, 'cause even if they dick me on hours, at least i get paid a lot. $10/hour. that's not bad at all. ugh. i just... need to get my life back in order again. i wish it wasn't so hard...