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i'm becoming more and more stupid. an ignorant to all people around me. i don't know how to react properly. i can't smile the way i smile when i'm with my friends, how to talk to any of them with ease. yesterday i talked to a friend, she told me she cut herself again, i want to comfort her, with my words, just like before, but i found myself unable to speak, i just sat here beside her, nodding, but in reality i don't understand a thing she said.
i went to the church today, spent a little time with god. asking him why i am doing this to myself, why this is all happening to me. i prayed, and cried, and cried and cried. then a priest approached me, he sat at my side. he asked me what is my problem and suddenly i find myself opening to him, telling him my problems, he listened carefully. he was shocked when i told him i tried to take my life more than three times. he gave me a rosary, but returned it to him. he asked me why, but i just smiled.
okay i'm sharing too much.
as if there's someone who will read this.
i went to the church today, spent a little time with god. asking him why i am doing this to myself, why this is all happening to me. i prayed, and cried, and cried and cried. then a priest approached me, he sat at my side. he asked me what is my problem and suddenly i find myself opening to him, telling him my problems, he listened carefully. he was shocked when i told him i tried to take my life more than three times. he gave me a rosary, but returned it to him. he asked me why, but i just smiled.
okay i'm sharing too much.
as if there's someone who will read this.