Kangteuk fic - Freefall
1st post!! xDD
A lot happened today and then i felt like writing this fic. I did it for about one hour. haha, so sorry if it's such a crap.
001. Freefall
Pairings: Kangteuk
Genre: Angst
Author: aoinu99
Rating: G
Summary: Eeteuk was shocked by a lot of things. (suck at this)
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KANGTEUK - FREEFALL
Eeteuk was lying there on his bed. He had no schedule today. Yet, he didn’t feel like doing anything. Instead, he just laid there on his bed, rolling from side to side. He kind of liked it though. He finally had time for himself. To think. Think about what had happened in his life. So, he just closed his eyes and quickly opened them as a person’s face flashed through his head. He tried to close them again. And again, that person’s face came. Eeteuk got up from his bed and shook his head, hoping by doing so the image in his head would be shaken off. He did everything to keep his mind busy.
And he was shocked when he realized that he couldn’t stop thinking about him for the whole day.
Then he picked up his phone and dialed his number.
“Yes hyung?” the receiver answered.
Eeteuk couldn’t hear his voice clearly. There were a very loud music and people chattering.
“Wah, so noisy. Where are you?” He should have known the answer even without asking.
“Oh, I’m in my friend’s party. What’s wrong?”
This time Eeteuk could hear giggles. Girls’ giggles.
“I see. No, no, nothing. Anyway, have fun there.”
With this, he hung up the phone.
‘Party..’ Eeteuk thought. Party means girls and beers. Girls.. A lot of thoughts were running through his brain. ‘What if there’s a hottie there? And it’s him so he will probably go after her. And what if they finally being hooked up together?’
He felt something was rising up in his body. He thought it was anger. But it was not.
And he was shocked when he realized that it was ‘jealousy’ that he was feeling.
Eeteuk was listening to his mp3 player when he heard the entrance door was being opened. Then he heard a laughing voice. It was his voice. He automatically pulled out his earphone and dashed to see him. God, how he had missed him today. But then, another laughter stopped his steps. He stood there in front of his room, listening to every single thing that happened downstairs.
His laughter, a girl’s laughter, another girl’s laughter, people talking, and the sound of bottles met bottles. He’s drinking.
Eeteuk still had his foot fixed on the ground. Torn apart between seeing him or not. The he decided not to see him. Seems like he’s having fun and he didn’t want to ruin it.
He turned back to his room and he heard his laughter again. Suddenly he felt like something stabbed his heart really hard.
And he was shocked by the ache he felt in his heart.
Eeteuk felt so tired. He wanted to sleep. But the voices were just too loud. Usually he never minded. He could just sleep even if there were lots of noises. But this time, he didn’t know why he couldn’t even close his eyes. And there he was. Sitting on the edge of his bed. Covering both of his ears. Trying to ignore the pain every time he heard he was laughing with the girls. Hoping that he would probably knock on his door and ask him to join them.
But he didn’t come. He never came. So he put the highest volume on his earphone. Trying to block the voices even though sometime the voices would just sneaked into his ears. But that’s fine. He could cover them with his hands. He didn’t sleep that night. It was raining outside. Raining, just like him right now.
And he was shocked when he realized that he was crying for one whole night.
Those fan services were all lies. That was just an act. He would never look at him. All of those confessions, hugs, and kisses were all planned. They just had to follow the script. Their fans were happy, the producer was happy, and that’s it. As long as everyone was happy. In fact, they were not that close in real life. He had his own life and Eeteuk had his own as well. Everything was just an act.
It had been scripted. His love for him was scripted. And of course, his love for him was also scripted. Or at least that was what he was thinking for all this time. But tonight he finally realized that it’s not just an act.
And he was shocked when he realized that he had SERIOUSLY fallen for him.
Eeteuk had fallen for Kangin. Deeply. Like freefalling, he didn’t know when he could stop falling. He just fell down, down, down, deeper, deeper, and deeper. So deep that it hurts. Because he knew there’s no way Kangin would love him back. He just hoped that he could stop falling and prayed it wouldn’t be so hurtful when he finally hit the ground.
A lot happened today and then i felt like writing this fic. I did it for about one hour. haha, so sorry if it's such a crap.
001. Freefall
Pairings: Kangteuk
Genre: Angst
Author: aoinu99
Rating: G
Summary: Eeteuk was shocked by a lot of things. (suck at this)
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KANGTEUK - FREEFALL
Eeteuk was lying there on his bed. He had no schedule today. Yet, he didn’t feel like doing anything. Instead, he just laid there on his bed, rolling from side to side. He kind of liked it though. He finally had time for himself. To think. Think about what had happened in his life. So, he just closed his eyes and quickly opened them as a person’s face flashed through his head. He tried to close them again. And again, that person’s face came. Eeteuk got up from his bed and shook his head, hoping by doing so the image in his head would be shaken off. He did everything to keep his mind busy.
And he was shocked when he realized that he couldn’t stop thinking about him for the whole day.
Then he picked up his phone and dialed his number.
“Yes hyung?” the receiver answered.
Eeteuk couldn’t hear his voice clearly. There were a very loud music and people chattering.
“Wah, so noisy. Where are you?” He should have known the answer even without asking.
“Oh, I’m in my friend’s party. What’s wrong?”
This time Eeteuk could hear giggles. Girls’ giggles.
“I see. No, no, nothing. Anyway, have fun there.”
With this, he hung up the phone.
‘Party..’ Eeteuk thought. Party means girls and beers. Girls.. A lot of thoughts were running through his brain. ‘What if there’s a hottie there? And it’s him so he will probably go after her. And what if they finally being hooked up together?’
He felt something was rising up in his body. He thought it was anger. But it was not.
And he was shocked when he realized that it was ‘jealousy’ that he was feeling.
Eeteuk was listening to his mp3 player when he heard the entrance door was being opened. Then he heard a laughing voice. It was his voice. He automatically pulled out his earphone and dashed to see him. God, how he had missed him today. But then, another laughter stopped his steps. He stood there in front of his room, listening to every single thing that happened downstairs.
His laughter, a girl’s laughter, another girl’s laughter, people talking, and the sound of bottles met bottles. He’s drinking.
Eeteuk still had his foot fixed on the ground. Torn apart between seeing him or not. The he decided not to see him. Seems like he’s having fun and he didn’t want to ruin it.
He turned back to his room and he heard his laughter again. Suddenly he felt like something stabbed his heart really hard.
And he was shocked by the ache he felt in his heart.
Eeteuk felt so tired. He wanted to sleep. But the voices were just too loud. Usually he never minded. He could just sleep even if there were lots of noises. But this time, he didn’t know why he couldn’t even close his eyes. And there he was. Sitting on the edge of his bed. Covering both of his ears. Trying to ignore the pain every time he heard he was laughing with the girls. Hoping that he would probably knock on his door and ask him to join them.
But he didn’t come. He never came. So he put the highest volume on his earphone. Trying to block the voices even though sometime the voices would just sneaked into his ears. But that’s fine. He could cover them with his hands. He didn’t sleep that night. It was raining outside. Raining, just like him right now.
And he was shocked when he realized that he was crying for one whole night.
Those fan services were all lies. That was just an act. He would never look at him. All of those confessions, hugs, and kisses were all planned. They just had to follow the script. Their fans were happy, the producer was happy, and that’s it. As long as everyone was happy. In fact, they were not that close in real life. He had his own life and Eeteuk had his own as well. Everything was just an act.
It had been scripted. His love for him was scripted. And of course, his love for him was also scripted. Or at least that was what he was thinking for all this time. But tonight he finally realized that it’s not just an act.
And he was shocked when he realized that he had SERIOUSLY fallen for him.
Eeteuk had fallen for Kangin. Deeply. Like freefalling, he didn’t know when he could stop falling. He just fell down, down, down, deeper, deeper, and deeper. So deep that it hurts. Because he knew there’s no way Kangin would love him back. He just hoped that he could stop falling and prayed it wouldn’t be so hurtful when he finally hit the ground.