Love's Sorrow Chapter 17
Title: Love's Sorrow
Author:aoi_jihyo
Beta: shine_xd
Length: 17/20
Pairing: Yoosu, Jaechun (slight)
Genre: Angst/Smut/Romance
Rating: R
Warning: m-preg
Summary: Junsu was aware that the man was his brother-in-law. Yoochun wasn't his and he knew it. But Junsu's darkest side still wanted him, it desired him. It was a question of pride, wasn't it?
Wasn’t it?
“You knew?” Jaejoong asked his mother. The woman had confessed knowing about Junsu’s condition since the beginning. She nodded. “Why didn’t you tell us?”
Sighing she said. “I thought he was lying. I thought that he was only saying that for Yoochun, I never thought… I couldn’t believe him.”
There was no turning back, "what's done is done". After the conversation with the woman, everyone sat on the dining room to have breakfast. Both Mr. and Mrs. Kim were really happy to see their children again, and even though it was a little bit awkward, both of them wore a smile on their faces. Mrs. Kim had said sorry to Junsu hoping for the boy to forgive her.
Junsu, even though was dying to shout at his mother, decided to forgive her; there was no point on being mad at her anymore. The awkwardness was suffocating, but Junsu was hungry so he ignored everything and everyone eating everything on his plate. Yoochun smiled looking at the boy. “Have you been to the doctor yet?” he asked curiously; he wanted to know more about his child.
Junsu shook his head. “Didn’t have time or money to. I went once when I found out I was pregnant though.” Everyone nodded; they all wanted to know about the baby without a doubt. “By the way, I don’t want to live here.”
“Where do you want to go? The best for you is to stay where there are more people, you know, to take care of you,” said Mr. Kim.
Junsu frowned. “But I don’t want to stay here; I don’t want to be a bother for any of you.” Junsu wasn’t really saying it for any of his parents or even for Yoochun, he meant it for Jaejoong; his presence must be really disturbing him.
“You are not a bother, honey,” said Mr. Kim as he took Junsu’s hand on his own.
“Whatever, we’ll talk about that later. Now I will finish eating.”Not satisfied, everyone went back to their plates.
Jaejoong was now in Yoochun’s car, the other man said that he would stay with Junsu to talk. Jaejoong didn’t need any other word to know what he meant. He nodded in understanding and went to the company alone.
Yoochun sighed, he was a jerk, he couldn’t believe how many times he had repeated that to himself in the last past months. Shaking his head, the man walked back in. Junsu was sitting in front of the TV playing video games with a sandwich on his mouth. Yoochun sat beside him but the other simply ignored him. “If you eat so much it will be bad for the baby.” Junsu stopped. With a pout on his face, Junsu left the half eaten sandwich on the plate.
“You are right,” he said without letting the game remote control go.
“May I play with you?” Junsu looked at the man, he nodded at last.
“You don’t have to act kind just because I’m pregnant, you know.”
Yoochun sighed. “That’s not the only reason,” he said.
Junsu bit his lower lip; he was holding himself back at the moment. The only thing that he wanted was to hug and kiss Yoochun without worrying about anything else, but he couldn’t, he just couldn’t. “I want to change,” he said. Yoochun looked at him surprised. “For the baby, I don’t want to continue being the same pathetic desperate bratty kid.”
Once the shock was gone Yoochun nodded, and said. “You are not like that.” Junsu laughed.
“Yoochun, after all that had happened and now me being here and wanting to… to kiss you and be with you, do you really don’t think I’m just a pathetic desperate kid?” Yoochun didn’t have to answer that question; he took Junsu in his arms and kissed the boy passionately.
Junsu put his arms on the other’s neck kissing this one back. They were so desperate to feel each other.
It wasn’t until Junsu groaned that they stopped their lustful act.
“I’m sorry, is there something wrong?” Junsu shook his head.
“No, the baby kicked me, that’s all.”
Yoochun smiled. “Let me see,” he said as he landed his hand on Junsu’s stomach. After a few seconds a frown appeared on his forehead. “I can’t feel anything.”
“He stopped; maybe he is scared of you.” Yoochun’s smiled faded completely. Junsu was right. “He usually never moves when other’s touch him.”
Yoochun nodded. “I see, then,” he gave the boy a quick peck. “I’ll have to change that.” Junsu smiled, but soon his smiled faded as well.
“This is so childish, Yoochun, you are still married and I’m still your spouse’s brother. This is wrong.” Yoochun nodded for a second but he then thought. Yeah, he was right, this was wrong, his relationship with Jaejoong was wrong, the man didn’t deserve what he was doing to him, and he was not good enough for Jaejoong.
“I guess you do are a pathetic desperate bratty kid, and I know for sure that I’m a pathetic heartless jerk, guess we are meant for each other.” Junsu couldn’t help the laugh that escaped from his lips.
“Yes, guess we are.” Yoochun then kissed the man once again. They kissed for a long long time.
There was a warm feeling Junsu hardly felt before, when they were still together, that he thought he would suffocate any second. There were so many conflicting emotions inside of him that he decided to ignore all of them; he was too tired to think of all of them at the same time.
“It’s so confusing,” said Junsu.
Yoochun shook his head. He didn’t want Junsu talking about all the things that had happened at the moment; he wanted to enjoy the other’s warmth.
Junsu gain enough courage. He bit his lips as his hand went to caress Yoochun’s manhood. Yoochun took the hand on his and shook his head. “But I… you know how long it has been since the last time I had sex? Well, I mean since the last time we had sex?”
“I’m afraid to hurt you… but we can go to your room and I can make you feel better,” Yoochun smirked.
Junsu smirked too as he tried to stand up. “I can’t,” he said after falling back.
“Let me help you.” Yoochun took his hand helping the boy up. It was still surreal, what was happening now was hard to believe, but they were not about to think that at the moment. Yoochun sat the younger boy on his bed. Junsu, even though felt like this was no more like a dream, grinned. Yoochun kneeled down unzipping Junsu’s pants.
Junsu moaned as he felt Yoochun’s warmth breathe on his bulge. It was almost impossible to think that the mere thought of feeling the other man was provoking such pleasurable shudders through all his body. Yoochun looked up smirking as the other guy trembled under his touch. There was no doubt that the man wanted to go all the way and feel himself inside his beautiful lover, but he just couldn't do that knowing that he might hurt the man and the baby in the process. He shook the thought away, but didn't stop touching the younger man.
Junsu looked restless, he was anxious. Yoochun proceeded to the next step of his encounter. Taking Junsu's manhood on his hand firmly the man opened his mouth wide enough to swallow the boy's thickness inside of it. Junsu let a loud gasp as he felt the wetness surrounding himself. The shudders that came after the action were uncontrollable. Soon he realized that the damp tongue had left his piece of meat. He wanted to protest but he knew he had cum before usual. It was understandable; he hadn't have sex in such a long time and his body was really sensible at the moment.
"Should I do it again?" asked Yoochun smirking.
Junsu shook his head, still savoring the wonderful pleasure that Yoochun had injected in him. "I want you to enjoy too," he said with a shade of pink on his cheeks.
"You don't have to worry about me. I want you to enjoy every minute of this time we have together."
"But making you feel good makes me feel good. I really want to do this, Yoochun," a giggle escaped from his lips.
"Okay then, you making me feel good is something that I will surely enjoy," he walked to the bed were he sat in a conformable way. Junsu was beaming at the moment. Slowly the boy made his way towards the man and kneeled in front of him.
Gently, Junsu bent his knees. His hands were trembling. Inhaling and exhaling, he opened his month wide enough to let the other inside his damp cavern.
Yoochun groaned, he did have sex with Jaejoong, there was no point in denying that, but there was no comparison with the feeling that Junsu made him have.
The younger man licked and sucked the piece of Yoochun that was still hard as a rock. He wanted to feel the man inside of him, but he knew that Yoochun was not going to let that happen. The thought made him smile, but the smile faded away when Yoochun’s seed spilled all over his face.
Yoochun looked down and walked to the bathroom. He wiped Junsu clean.
Both men knew that continuing the act will lead them to a point of no return. They let themselves rest on the bed.
“Yoochun?” Junsu whispered on the other’s chest. “Hmm?”
“I think I’m really easy,” he giggled at his own words.
“Well, I hope you are only easy with me.”
Junsu nodded. “Yes, I was, even though I was about to sleep with Youngjae,” Yoochun tensed. “I didn’t. I heard that pregnant people are usually really horny.”
Yoochun laughed at the honest comment. “Is that what you wanted to tell me?”
Junsu shook his head. “No, I wanted to ask you, why are you so changed? Did something happen?”
Yoochun tighten his embrace. “Not really, I guess I only admitted to myself what was really in front of me.”
“I don’t get it, what was that that was in front of you?”
“That even thought you were a brat, you are my brat.”
Junsu laughed. “Is that a good thing?”
“Well, what that means young man is that I realized that I… love you.” Junsu didn’t say anything, not because he didn’t want to, but because his throat felt constricted, there was a painful feeling on it. Yoochun caressed his hair feeling Junsu’s tears falling on his chest. “I’m really tired of the lies, I had lied enough,” he said.
“But,” Junsu bit the insides of his cheek. “Right now… aren’t you lying to Jaejoong hyung?” Junsu didn’t want to spoil the moment, but he needed to know; there were just too many things that needed to be said.
“Yeah, being honest is kind of hard.”
Junsu nodded. “Are you… are you going to divorce?” He felt weird and afraid when asking that, he didn’t want to receive a negative answer, but he needed to be sure. Yoochun lifted his head by the chin and kissed his lips.
“I think it’s the best.”
Junsu smiled. “I’m happy and sad, I know hyung is going to suffer, I don’t want that but I would be lying if I said that I’m not happy and really excited. I guess I’m still really selfish.”
“I also have to be honest; this is not only about you and I, Junsu. My relationship with Jaejoong isn’t healthy anymore. I don’t think our relationship should be even called that.”
Junsu nodded in understanding. He kissed the older man gently. “You are not doing this just because I’m pregnant, right?”
Yoochun smiled handsomely. “I would never do that; I truly love you, Junsu. You are like you said it, a bratty kid; I do not think I would be with you if I didn’t love you.”
Junsu giggled. “Thank you, I think,” they kissed again. Yoochun wanted to enjoy before going to the reality once again.
Junsu opened his mouth to close it the next moment. He looked at the other man that had his eyes closed, he wasn’t sleeping, probably only resting. Junsu realize that there wasn’t anything else to say or to even think. Yoochun was his and that was the only thing that he cared about. With a smile on his face the boy let himself rest against the fully clothed older man whom looked really peaceful. He was going to let his selfish self take control of him once more, and he was going to let things happen on their own.
With those thoughts on mind the boy fell soon asleep. He was tired of not doing anything, and there was laziness still lingering in his body.
Without really thinking, both men fell asleep at that moment, both of them lighthearted.
Chapter 18
A/N: Sooooooooo... *ashamed* I'm sorry, I wish I could tell you that I didn't update because I was busy, but the truth is that I was just too into my books, and then after I was done I didn't have the head to write, I was kind of depressed so I couldn't really concentrate on anything, I'm sorry, I know this fic is getting cheesier and... just too corny, I'm sorry
Author:aoi_jihyo
Beta: shine_xd
Length: 17/20
Pairing: Yoosu, Jaechun (slight)
Genre: Angst/Smut/Romance
Rating: R
Warning: m-preg
Summary: Junsu was aware that the man was his brother-in-law. Yoochun wasn't his and he knew it. But Junsu's darkest side still wanted him, it desired him. It was a question of pride, wasn't it?
Wasn’t it?
“You knew?” Jaejoong asked his mother. The woman had confessed knowing about Junsu’s condition since the beginning. She nodded. “Why didn’t you tell us?”
Sighing she said. “I thought he was lying. I thought that he was only saying that for Yoochun, I never thought… I couldn’t believe him.”
There was no turning back, "what's done is done". After the conversation with the woman, everyone sat on the dining room to have breakfast. Both Mr. and Mrs. Kim were really happy to see their children again, and even though it was a little bit awkward, both of them wore a smile on their faces. Mrs. Kim had said sorry to Junsu hoping for the boy to forgive her.
Junsu, even though was dying to shout at his mother, decided to forgive her; there was no point on being mad at her anymore. The awkwardness was suffocating, but Junsu was hungry so he ignored everything and everyone eating everything on his plate. Yoochun smiled looking at the boy. “Have you been to the doctor yet?” he asked curiously; he wanted to know more about his child.
Junsu shook his head. “Didn’t have time or money to. I went once when I found out I was pregnant though.” Everyone nodded; they all wanted to know about the baby without a doubt. “By the way, I don’t want to live here.”
“Where do you want to go? The best for you is to stay where there are more people, you know, to take care of you,” said Mr. Kim.
Junsu frowned. “But I don’t want to stay here; I don’t want to be a bother for any of you.” Junsu wasn’t really saying it for any of his parents or even for Yoochun, he meant it for Jaejoong; his presence must be really disturbing him.
“You are not a bother, honey,” said Mr. Kim as he took Junsu’s hand on his own.
“Whatever, we’ll talk about that later. Now I will finish eating.”Not satisfied, everyone went back to their plates.
Jaejoong was now in Yoochun’s car, the other man said that he would stay with Junsu to talk. Jaejoong didn’t need any other word to know what he meant. He nodded in understanding and went to the company alone.
Yoochun sighed, he was a jerk, he couldn’t believe how many times he had repeated that to himself in the last past months. Shaking his head, the man walked back in. Junsu was sitting in front of the TV playing video games with a sandwich on his mouth. Yoochun sat beside him but the other simply ignored him. “If you eat so much it will be bad for the baby.” Junsu stopped. With a pout on his face, Junsu left the half eaten sandwich on the plate.
“You are right,” he said without letting the game remote control go.
“May I play with you?” Junsu looked at the man, he nodded at last.
“You don’t have to act kind just because I’m pregnant, you know.”
Yoochun sighed. “That’s not the only reason,” he said.
Junsu bit his lower lip; he was holding himself back at the moment. The only thing that he wanted was to hug and kiss Yoochun without worrying about anything else, but he couldn’t, he just couldn’t. “I want to change,” he said. Yoochun looked at him surprised. “For the baby, I don’t want to continue being the same pathetic desperate bratty kid.”
Once the shock was gone Yoochun nodded, and said. “You are not like that.” Junsu laughed.
“Yoochun, after all that had happened and now me being here and wanting to… to kiss you and be with you, do you really don’t think I’m just a pathetic desperate kid?” Yoochun didn’t have to answer that question; he took Junsu in his arms and kissed the boy passionately.
Junsu put his arms on the other’s neck kissing this one back. They were so desperate to feel each other.
It wasn’t until Junsu groaned that they stopped their lustful act.
“I’m sorry, is there something wrong?” Junsu shook his head.
“No, the baby kicked me, that’s all.”
Yoochun smiled. “Let me see,” he said as he landed his hand on Junsu’s stomach. After a few seconds a frown appeared on his forehead. “I can’t feel anything.”
“He stopped; maybe he is scared of you.” Yoochun’s smiled faded completely. Junsu was right. “He usually never moves when other’s touch him.”
Yoochun nodded. “I see, then,” he gave the boy a quick peck. “I’ll have to change that.” Junsu smiled, but soon his smiled faded as well.
“This is so childish, Yoochun, you are still married and I’m still your spouse’s brother. This is wrong.” Yoochun nodded for a second but he then thought. Yeah, he was right, this was wrong, his relationship with Jaejoong was wrong, the man didn’t deserve what he was doing to him, and he was not good enough for Jaejoong.
“I guess you do are a pathetic desperate bratty kid, and I know for sure that I’m a pathetic heartless jerk, guess we are meant for each other.” Junsu couldn’t help the laugh that escaped from his lips.
“Yes, guess we are.” Yoochun then kissed the man once again. They kissed for a long long time.
There was a warm feeling Junsu hardly felt before, when they were still together, that he thought he would suffocate any second. There were so many conflicting emotions inside of him that he decided to ignore all of them; he was too tired to think of all of them at the same time.
“It’s so confusing,” said Junsu.
Yoochun shook his head. He didn’t want Junsu talking about all the things that had happened at the moment; he wanted to enjoy the other’s warmth.
Junsu gain enough courage. He bit his lips as his hand went to caress Yoochun’s manhood. Yoochun took the hand on his and shook his head. “But I… you know how long it has been since the last time I had sex? Well, I mean since the last time we had sex?”
“I’m afraid to hurt you… but we can go to your room and I can make you feel better,” Yoochun smirked.
Junsu smirked too as he tried to stand up. “I can’t,” he said after falling back.
“Let me help you.” Yoochun took his hand helping the boy up. It was still surreal, what was happening now was hard to believe, but they were not about to think that at the moment. Yoochun sat the younger boy on his bed. Junsu, even though felt like this was no more like a dream, grinned. Yoochun kneeled down unzipping Junsu’s pants.
Junsu moaned as he felt Yoochun’s warmth breathe on his bulge. It was almost impossible to think that the mere thought of feeling the other man was provoking such pleasurable shudders through all his body. Yoochun looked up smirking as the other guy trembled under his touch. There was no doubt that the man wanted to go all the way and feel himself inside his beautiful lover, but he just couldn't do that knowing that he might hurt the man and the baby in the process. He shook the thought away, but didn't stop touching the younger man.
Junsu looked restless, he was anxious. Yoochun proceeded to the next step of his encounter. Taking Junsu's manhood on his hand firmly the man opened his mouth wide enough to swallow the boy's thickness inside of it. Junsu let a loud gasp as he felt the wetness surrounding himself. The shudders that came after the action were uncontrollable. Soon he realized that the damp tongue had left his piece of meat. He wanted to protest but he knew he had cum before usual. It was understandable; he hadn't have sex in such a long time and his body was really sensible at the moment.
"Should I do it again?" asked Yoochun smirking.
Junsu shook his head, still savoring the wonderful pleasure that Yoochun had injected in him. "I want you to enjoy too," he said with a shade of pink on his cheeks.
"You don't have to worry about me. I want you to enjoy every minute of this time we have together."
"But making you feel good makes me feel good. I really want to do this, Yoochun," a giggle escaped from his lips.
"Okay then, you making me feel good is something that I will surely enjoy," he walked to the bed were he sat in a conformable way. Junsu was beaming at the moment. Slowly the boy made his way towards the man and kneeled in front of him.
Gently, Junsu bent his knees. His hands were trembling. Inhaling and exhaling, he opened his month wide enough to let the other inside his damp cavern.
Yoochun groaned, he did have sex with Jaejoong, there was no point in denying that, but there was no comparison with the feeling that Junsu made him have.
The younger man licked and sucked the piece of Yoochun that was still hard as a rock. He wanted to feel the man inside of him, but he knew that Yoochun was not going to let that happen. The thought made him smile, but the smile faded away when Yoochun’s seed spilled all over his face.
Yoochun looked down and walked to the bathroom. He wiped Junsu clean.
Both men knew that continuing the act will lead them to a point of no return. They let themselves rest on the bed.
“Yoochun?” Junsu whispered on the other’s chest. “Hmm?”
“I think I’m really easy,” he giggled at his own words.
“Well, I hope you are only easy with me.”
Junsu nodded. “Yes, I was, even though I was about to sleep with Youngjae,” Yoochun tensed. “I didn’t. I heard that pregnant people are usually really horny.”
Yoochun laughed at the honest comment. “Is that what you wanted to tell me?”
Junsu shook his head. “No, I wanted to ask you, why are you so changed? Did something happen?”
Yoochun tighten his embrace. “Not really, I guess I only admitted to myself what was really in front of me.”
“I don’t get it, what was that that was in front of you?”
“That even thought you were a brat, you are my brat.”
Junsu laughed. “Is that a good thing?”
“Well, what that means young man is that I realized that I… love you.” Junsu didn’t say anything, not because he didn’t want to, but because his throat felt constricted, there was a painful feeling on it. Yoochun caressed his hair feeling Junsu’s tears falling on his chest. “I’m really tired of the lies, I had lied enough,” he said.
“But,” Junsu bit the insides of his cheek. “Right now… aren’t you lying to Jaejoong hyung?” Junsu didn’t want to spoil the moment, but he needed to know; there were just too many things that needed to be said.
“Yeah, being honest is kind of hard.”
Junsu nodded. “Are you… are you going to divorce?” He felt weird and afraid when asking that, he didn’t want to receive a negative answer, but he needed to be sure. Yoochun lifted his head by the chin and kissed his lips.
“I think it’s the best.”
Junsu smiled. “I’m happy and sad, I know hyung is going to suffer, I don’t want that but I would be lying if I said that I’m not happy and really excited. I guess I’m still really selfish.”
“I also have to be honest; this is not only about you and I, Junsu. My relationship with Jaejoong isn’t healthy anymore. I don’t think our relationship should be even called that.”
Junsu nodded in understanding. He kissed the older man gently. “You are not doing this just because I’m pregnant, right?”
Yoochun smiled handsomely. “I would never do that; I truly love you, Junsu. You are like you said it, a bratty kid; I do not think I would be with you if I didn’t love you.”
Junsu giggled. “Thank you, I think,” they kissed again. Yoochun wanted to enjoy before going to the reality once again.
Junsu opened his mouth to close it the next moment. He looked at the other man that had his eyes closed, he wasn’t sleeping, probably only resting. Junsu realize that there wasn’t anything else to say or to even think. Yoochun was his and that was the only thing that he cared about. With a smile on his face the boy let himself rest against the fully clothed older man whom looked really peaceful. He was going to let his selfish self take control of him once more, and he was going to let things happen on their own.
With those thoughts on mind the boy fell soon asleep. He was tired of not doing anything, and there was laziness still lingering in his body.
Without really thinking, both men fell asleep at that moment, both of them lighthearted.
Chapter 18
A/N: Sooooooooo... *ashamed* I'm sorry, I wish I could tell you that I didn't update because I was busy, but the truth is that I was just too into my books, and then after I was done I didn't have the head to write, I was kind of depressed so I couldn't really concentrate on anything, I'm sorry, I know this fic is getting cheesier and... just too corny, I'm sorry