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i love how everyone has such little faith in me. its great. i love having no support about anything from all the people who are supporting me, and how its tearing up my friendships. i fall apart because you tear me apart. rip me in half, and leave me doubting any abilities i thought that i had. its great being judged and found as unworthy and a
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you make it seem that i'm asking a lot out of you...
all i ask is you start saving some money and start paying off debts; obviously not all at once, but bit by bit.not even to me, but to people you owe.
whenever i see or talk to you, you're always spending money...the skirt ( which i shouldnt have known about), x-mas gifts, and whatelse not.
you also know i don't like that either, and yet you still make that choice..... you wonder why i sometimes think you're not making an effort, specially when i hear, " oh yeah, she's now hell-bent on paying you back"
so thats implying you weren't always "hellbent" and that you were putting it off
sometimes i think you're putting no effort into this, and you're just saying you are just to make me and bosslady happy...
i know what its like to be broke and ass deep in debt. i know there are sacrifices to be made. in high school, i owed like 3500 from gambling... after i got "laid off" from mickey d's. i had to pay back the money, so i took my lunch money and gave it to my friends...it took me like 3 jobs, and 4 years to do, but i paid off my debts ( granted i gave em like 3/4 of the money... payments of 25-50 a week, and they eventually called it even) only thing keepin me unhurt was the effort i put in ( they all did bookie betting, and were "hardcore" amongst friends... either they get thier money or fuck people up)
take a shot at me, be mad at me, or just ignore me for all i care.. i just started gettin this out of my chest...and dont worry, in a couple months you'll prolly never see me again... like you'd ever notice
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oh fuck it, i'm tired and my head hurts. just tell me you haven't lost faith in me too.
as for katie, i see you try. i understand. (maybe because i haerd your plan...)
i'm tired of sugarcoating my life. if i feel about something, damnit, i'm gonna spill it. fuck you all. i don't give a damn about how you might feel. almost everybody let me down now, and all i tried to do was to get along. well, THAT didn't work. so yeah. this is. Ronald, believe. Anzealabis, try. that's it. even if you already do, that is my advice to you. (shit, i better go to bed...)
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