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i love how everyone has such little faith in me. its great. i love having no support about anything from all the people who are supporting me, and how its tearing up my friendships. i fall apart because you tear me apart. rip me in half, and leave me doubting any abilities i thought that i had. its great being judged and found as unworthy and a liar, a thief. break my heart, but not my strength. if i am alone in the end then so be it. i am trying but that is never good enough for anyone, and i am always left fallen alone with nothing to hold on to and nobody to reach for. i always fall short. always take too long, two steps behind.. my whole life. that is who i am, catherine. someone i thought i didn't know. but she is who everyone has always seen. guess now i see her too. her name decieves her.