just cos
i fear my personal life is slowly peeling away. leaving nothing left, but me. eh. whatever. it's not like i'm uncomfortable so whatever. there's something here i know it. as soon as the snow melts maybe i can make sense of it.
ugh. it's not that i'm making a big deal out of nothing because i'm not making a big deal. I JUST FEEL LIKE SOMETHING SHOULD HAPPEN!!! there's something wrong here. there's something not complete. it feels so far away.
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so it's valentine's. i thought things with bonnie would be settled by now. i guess they are just not as i hoped. lol. eh. who's fault's that? nah. it's not like that. anyway valentine's. my mom tried to get me to pick out a card for my dad. yeah no. i don't do bullshit cards like that. 'i love you SO MUCH!!!', 'to my DEAREST wife', 'darling... I LOVE YOU!!!'. go fuck yourself. if you have to put that into a card there is something wrong with you.
it's so much harder to find my own voice now. i'm branching out and becoming thin. thin. thinner. nothing left. blah. what's wrong with me now?
---ignore everything above this line too---
ugh. it's not that i'm making a big deal out of nothing because i'm not making a big deal. I JUST FEEL LIKE SOMETHING SHOULD HAPPEN!!! there's something wrong here. there's something not complete. it feels so far away.
---ignore everything above this line---
so it's valentine's. i thought things with bonnie would be settled by now. i guess they are just not as i hoped. lol. eh. who's fault's that? nah. it's not like that. anyway valentine's. my mom tried to get me to pick out a card for my dad. yeah no. i don't do bullshit cards like that. 'i love you SO MUCH!!!', 'to my DEAREST wife', 'darling... I LOVE YOU!!!'. go fuck yourself. if you have to put that into a card there is something wrong with you.
it's so much harder to find my own voice now. i'm branching out and becoming thin. thin. thinner. nothing left. blah. what's wrong with me now?
---ignore everything above this line too---