Master and Submissive, Part Two; Apologies and Faults

[antithestasia]

Last night was the first time I had seen My Master since I came to this conclusion, since I have gained this resolve to do My best. During the course of the evening, he was rude to Me three times, and three times I let it go. After the last one, I excused Myself, and hid in a different room with a book. I had planned to stay in there until I was no

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[thelastmehina]

You can't change anyone else, you can only change yourself.

You cannot rely on words alone - actions have greater meaning, too.

If you're not happy, then work with him to become happy. If you're not happy and you know you can't be happy, then leave. It will hurt and will break your heart into a bajillion little pieces - but three months from now, you won't be hurting over any of it anymore.

That's the best advice I can offer. Whatever you choose to do, I hope it makes you happy. Because you're a good person, and you deserve to be happy and to be with someone who makes you happy.

[antithestasia]

Thank you, My dear. He does make Me happy. The problem is, he also makes Me unhappy, and I am not sure if the good outweighs the bad. I owe both of us more than I've been giving, and I am repairing that, but I wonder if it will do any good in the end -- if I will have to leave anyway. Maybe it is simply the dynamic of the relationship that I am not comfortable with.

Sh*t, I deleted your comment.

[antithestasia]

thelastmehina's comment was:

The dynamic of a relationship is unlikely to change unless both partners are working in concert to change that. Not saying it's impossible, just that it's hard.

I hope it works out for you.

[antithestasia]

Well, yes and no. If I were to ask it, we could no longer be a D/s couple, and be only lovers. It would take some time for us to both adjust to that dynamic, but it would take no more than My word to change it, at least officially. I'd just rather not, yet, but instead try again.
Either way, thank you for your wishes.