"How as it possible that the sun was rising now, right in the middle of my midnight?"
there's this weird feeling in the air.... literally in the air around me. several times when i took the dog out tonight it felt... odd. it felt like, what i guess could only be called "back to school weather".... when it's not quite summer anymore but not really cool enough to be fall. for the last 16 years of my life, this time of year has been specifically set aside for the returning to school, to a schedule, to, well, life. and the last four years, with the imagery of packing up and leaving, it's been even more significant. ross leaving last thursday morning hit me with a thud i was not expecting. i literally broke down after he and mom left. part of me was really sad that he was leaving, just knowing that things wouldn't be the same around here. but selfishly, i was more upset that it was he was... and not me... leaving. I want to go back to school. I want to pack up my car. I want to have a road trip and go back to ithaca and walk into park and go to classes. i guess i never really realized what not having my last fall semester at ic was going to do to me. cause lets face it. it's the more enjoyable semester there. i think even if i was more secure in a job or where i was at in my life that it still would have hit me. maybe not as hard, but still. 16 years of summer vacation, school.... rinse and repeat. it's bound to have an impact. (speaking of jobs... they're trying out a 5th person, so i wont' know for yet another week...)
my birthday came and went. (thanks to all ya'll out in lj land that gave me a shoutout:). esp my giventofly37 love! seriously... i kept the pic up all week on my desktop and only changed it because i became engrossed in the magic that is ziva/tony (from ncis) tension.... *drool*) it was NEARLY as exciting as last year... and didn't really measure up to what i was hoping to do (but never would have been able to do) in ithaca, but it was nice none the less. mom really went above and beyond what i asked her to do. i told her i was perfectly content just going out to dinner and that all i wanted was ncis season 5 (it came out on dvd that day). well, i ended up getting that, a massage, a pretty ring, a cute tea cup, and tickets to go see wicked in october!!! (i actually ended up paying her for those, but still...) and then 2 days later sam and i went to cheesecake factory to have dinner and drinks to celebrate too:) side note: i cannot express how freaking happy i am to have sam around right now. firstly, i forgot how much fun we used to have together! but besides that, it's nice to have someone to go out with and vent.
i'm still reading midnight sun and twilight side by side. my finishing of that, however, has been stifled by s.meyer's temper tantrum (took her long enough to notice) over the leaked pages. i dont' feel the need to vent too much since i already did that and had it done for me over at flourish_leslie's page. but still. SHE CAN'T GIVE UP!!! I NEED MORE ED*CRACK!! ughhhhhh this man will be the end of me. (hehe)
speaking of me, and the end of me (lol), i got to talking to the guy i worked with last night. he started working over at star during my last semester and our schedules dont really match. so i never even met him until i subbed for someone and then recently when i picked up a new shift. i'm not even sure how we got on the subject, but it seems we have a common enemy in blood thinners. he's actually on them for the rest of his life because of a metal valve in his heart where as i was on them for 3 months for my blood clot and rib hole. we were comparing stories and talking about how we got into radio and what we want do there and he was just..... well, really interesting doesn't even begin to cover it, but i can't think of the right words. (right words: he's older than me and pretty freaking cute.... *snap out of it sara*)
obsession of late: MUSE. it started as just me re-listening to absolution after s.meyer mentioned it in her thanks section of one of the books. and i mean... it's not like i didn't like them before twilight. not only did i have all of the albums, hell, i worked for them! but i don't think i was ever this obsessive about them in high school. although, maybe i was.... i decided the other day to try and make my own "best of" mix. and i was going through origin of symmetry. and i think there was like... 2 songs i didn't want to use. i never listened to their albums for individual songs.... i ALWAYS listened to the whole thing and listened the whole way through almost every time. and i never really noticed that, cause there are very few albums i can listen through all the way and have there be no songs i don't like.
i bought season 2 of heroes the other day. i almost didn't, but when i saw the collectors edition at target, i couldn't help myself:) i messaged kelly about this earlier.... how could i forget about the momo/matt cuteness!! for serious. and for some reason, even though i haven't even really thought about it since it aired last fall, everything's starting to make sense. even though it totally didn't while it aired. i think i my head was perpetually tilted to the side the whole season. analysis so far? nathan= so much better than i ever thought *drool*. wonder twins= still boring. clare/west= not as bad... caitlin/adam= STILL BAD FOR PETER GO FIND YOUR BROTHER AND KISS AND MAKE UP. :-D
wow... lotta word vomit. maybe this means i'll start updating more lol. night everybody.
peace love and pearl jam....
my birthday came and went. (thanks to all ya'll out in lj land that gave me a shoutout:). esp my giventofly37 love! seriously... i kept the pic up all week on my desktop and only changed it because i became engrossed in the magic that is ziva/tony (from ncis) tension.... *drool*) it was NEARLY as exciting as last year... and didn't really measure up to what i was hoping to do (but never would have been able to do) in ithaca, but it was nice none the less. mom really went above and beyond what i asked her to do. i told her i was perfectly content just going out to dinner and that all i wanted was ncis season 5 (it came out on dvd that day). well, i ended up getting that, a massage, a pretty ring, a cute tea cup, and tickets to go see wicked in october!!! (i actually ended up paying her for those, but still...) and then 2 days later sam and i went to cheesecake factory to have dinner and drinks to celebrate too:) side note: i cannot express how freaking happy i am to have sam around right now. firstly, i forgot how much fun we used to have together! but besides that, it's nice to have someone to go out with and vent.
i'm still reading midnight sun and twilight side by side. my finishing of that, however, has been stifled by s.meyer's temper tantrum (took her long enough to notice) over the leaked pages. i dont' feel the need to vent too much since i already did that and had it done for me over at flourish_leslie's page. but still. SHE CAN'T GIVE UP!!! I NEED MORE ED*CRACK!! ughhhhhh this man will be the end of me. (hehe)
speaking of me, and the end of me (lol), i got to talking to the guy i worked with last night. he started working over at star during my last semester and our schedules dont really match. so i never even met him until i subbed for someone and then recently when i picked up a new shift. i'm not even sure how we got on the subject, but it seems we have a common enemy in blood thinners. he's actually on them for the rest of his life because of a metal valve in his heart where as i was on them for 3 months for my blood clot and rib hole. we were comparing stories and talking about how we got into radio and what we want do there and he was just..... well, really interesting doesn't even begin to cover it, but i can't think of the right words. (right words: he's older than me and pretty freaking cute.... *snap out of it sara*)
obsession of late: MUSE. it started as just me re-listening to absolution after s.meyer mentioned it in her thanks section of one of the books. and i mean... it's not like i didn't like them before twilight. not only did i have all of the albums, hell, i worked for them! but i don't think i was ever this obsessive about them in high school. although, maybe i was.... i decided the other day to try and make my own "best of" mix. and i was going through origin of symmetry. and i think there was like... 2 songs i didn't want to use. i never listened to their albums for individual songs.... i ALWAYS listened to the whole thing and listened the whole way through almost every time. and i never really noticed that, cause there are very few albums i can listen through all the way and have there be no songs i don't like.
i bought season 2 of heroes the other day. i almost didn't, but when i saw the collectors edition at target, i couldn't help myself:) i messaged kelly about this earlier.... how could i forget about the momo/matt cuteness!! for serious. and for some reason, even though i haven't even really thought about it since it aired last fall, everything's starting to make sense. even though it totally didn't while it aired. i think i my head was perpetually tilted to the side the whole season. analysis so far? nathan= so much better than i ever thought *drool*. wonder twins= still boring. clare/west= not as bad... caitlin/adam= STILL BAD FOR PETER GO FIND YOUR BROTHER AND KISS AND MAKE UP. :-D
wow... lotta word vomit. maybe this means i'll start updating more lol. night everybody.
peace love and pearl jam....