and if nothing can be done, we'll make the best of what's around
this whole schedule is really killing me. my back is sore as fuck. my sleeping patterns are waked out beyond belief. and i literally do nothing but eat, sleep, and work. yeah i'm going to make a shit load of money, but after this i'll probably spend a good chunk of it on a massage to forget about sitting in those fucking chairs for so long.
so not like this holiday is a big deal for me anymore but i am starting to get a bit bummed out that i don't really experience holidays anymore and have as much fun as other people do. there's never any picnics or celebration or even family for that matter.
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yeah so i never finished this before my shift last night. i have to say it was definitely the best of the three 8 hour shifts. but still, i'm glad they're done.
as i keep scheduling stuff in my calendar, i'm realizing more and more how little time i have left here. and i'm really in a panic now. 1) not only have i not finished going through my stuff in the basement to see where the stuff is i normally need for school, 2) i don't know what i would need differently for la, 3) i haven't really talked to my roommates about what we're going to do about stuff for the apartment, and 4) as much as i complain about not wanting to be here, god i'm not ready to leave the house and go back to the real world. yes i'm bored out of my mind, yes i hate being part of the house schedule, but i'll be damned if there isn't part of me that wants to cling to it with all my might.
ugh, i have so much to do and i really dont' want to do any of it. but i guess i'll go get started on my resumes for la. blarg.
peace love and pearl jam.
so not like this holiday is a big deal for me anymore but i am starting to get a bit bummed out that i don't really experience holidays anymore and have as much fun as other people do. there's never any picnics or celebration or even family for that matter.
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yeah so i never finished this before my shift last night. i have to say it was definitely the best of the three 8 hour shifts. but still, i'm glad they're done.
as i keep scheduling stuff in my calendar, i'm realizing more and more how little time i have left here. and i'm really in a panic now. 1) not only have i not finished going through my stuff in the basement to see where the stuff is i normally need for school, 2) i don't know what i would need differently for la, 3) i haven't really talked to my roommates about what we're going to do about stuff for the apartment, and 4) as much as i complain about not wanting to be here, god i'm not ready to leave the house and go back to the real world. yes i'm bored out of my mind, yes i hate being part of the house schedule, but i'll be damned if there isn't part of me that wants to cling to it with all my might.
ugh, i have so much to do and i really dont' want to do any of it. but i guess i'll go get started on my resumes for la. blarg.
peace love and pearl jam.