mary, you've got spunk.... i hate spunk.
i'm not sure how to describe the last few days since my last update. defiantly sleep filled and work filled. after my friday night shift, i started my zone-a-thon aka four straight days plus another day of zone shifts that i've picked up for people. right now i'm at my first of three 8 hour overnight shifts. just saying it makes me want to kill myself. but it's going to be good money. so i guess i can't really complain. it's been a really great time to play around with my mac and i even started ripping dvds from the family connection, so that no one will have to complain when i take shit to school anymore.
this weird sleep schedule is really messing with my mood. and is defiantly not helping my situation at home. more and more lately, i'm just getting really fed up with being there. i'm sick of doing so much around the house because i'm usually the only one home and then still getting shit on because of shit i did or didn't do. i'm sick of ross just leaving at any point because he wants to and then im stuck at home doing nothing with the dog. i'm sick of very nit-picky things. but what it basically all comes down to is that i REALLY miss living by myself. sure at times it was a bit lonely. but god i could do whatever i wanted however i wanted to and whenever i wanted to and it didn't matter. i could throw my clothes everywhere, not make by bed for days, not have to worry about making shoe marks on the wood (cause there was no wood).
i really thought if this was going to happen, it was going to be much sooner. so i'm kind of surprised that it happened now, with barely a month left, which, ironically, scares me to death that i'm leaving that soon. if i was just going to ithaca, not so much. i'm so unprepared it's not even funny. *le sigh*
i still have 6 hours left. i'm sure i'll post again. till then.
peace love and pearl jam...
this weird sleep schedule is really messing with my mood. and is defiantly not helping my situation at home. more and more lately, i'm just getting really fed up with being there. i'm sick of doing so much around the house because i'm usually the only one home and then still getting shit on because of shit i did or didn't do. i'm sick of ross just leaving at any point because he wants to and then im stuck at home doing nothing with the dog. i'm sick of very nit-picky things. but what it basically all comes down to is that i REALLY miss living by myself. sure at times it was a bit lonely. but god i could do whatever i wanted however i wanted to and whenever i wanted to and it didn't matter. i could throw my clothes everywhere, not make by bed for days, not have to worry about making shoe marks on the wood (cause there was no wood).
i really thought if this was going to happen, it was going to be much sooner. so i'm kind of surprised that it happened now, with barely a month left, which, ironically, scares me to death that i'm leaving that soon. if i was just going to ithaca, not so much. i'm so unprepared it's not even funny. *le sigh*
i still have 6 hours left. i'm sure i'll post again. till then.
peace love and pearl jam...