" Waxing philosophical with Weed "
I've been so afraid to lose my identity. What does it mean to be a "wife"? For some reason, if I explore myself, I find these stereotypes that I have to cling to: a wife is no longer as attractive because she is taken. Alluring, for me, apparently means sexy; beautiful is innocence to me; wifely is either more frumpy or more masculine; no one wants married women because they then no longer have worth; married women are plain or uninteresting, as in older. I think, maybe I have a deep-rooted belief that once a woman is not attracting men, she is valueless.
Deep down, I have a lot of shitty beliefs about my own gender that makes me want to comfort my childhood self, at the moment she "learned" these things about women.
But a wife. Me! It's actually happening. People flew in for this because it's a real thing.
I am so high (I eat edibles to sleep), I have no idea what I've been writing