it's only fear

[antihysteric]

I am tiiiired, oh my goodness - unwontedly and unwarrantedly so, really. But I do this thing where I wear myself out thinking of all that I need to do, mentally retreading my to-do list and bullet-pointing lots of anxiety under each item on it. It doesn't help that I tend to procrastinate more when I'm afraid, and there's very little I dislike more

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[kuteki]

a post-Inception story about Mal, and I think it may be the only story I need from that fandom.

Thank you for the rec, (and all your recs, actually, they are always so excellent!) that story was incredible and I agree completely. Have been reluctant to get into the Inception fandom, as am missing the appeal of Arthur/Eames, but if there were more Mal-centric fics like that one, may seriously reconsider.

[antihysteric]

Aw, thank you!

I totally agree with you about Inception fandom; I didn't walk out shipping anyone very hard, and was initially surprised to find the Arthur/Eames explosion. I guess I understand why fandom latched onto that pairing, as much as it disappoints me that we're going for two white guys yet again.

It would definitely increase my interest in the fandom, too, to see more Mal-centric fic. I'd also love to read gen that plays with Nolan's world-building and develops other characters more fully, but I'm not sure there's a lot of that either.

[kuteki]

This is exactly how I feel: where is the awesome ensemble gen/why the two white guys again, but have not been saying it, because the great majority of my flist is obsessed with Arthur/Eames. :/

[antihysteric]

the great majority of my flist is obsessed with Arthur/Eames. :/It's a difficult situation, isn't it? I certainly don't want to harsh anyone's squee, and I understand that many people aren't interested in the ~social justice~ part of fandom, just the escapism. In that case, Arthur/Eames probably works as a frame for cliches and kinks that have become a really ingrained part of slash fandom

[kuteki]

No, I am so glad that you did, because I also wanted to say more and now I can! :D

I certainly don't want to harsh anyone's squee

Yes, but for me it's more than that. The reason I haven't said anything is two-fold. Firstly, I don't think that Arthur/Eames is inherently bad, it only becomes problematic when viewed in the wider context of the slash fandom. Secondly, I happily ship a number of similar pairings and if I singled out this particular one, it is likely to come across as fairly hypocritical. These are obviously my issues, um.

Periodically I'll see reflections on representation (of women, of characters of color, of disabled characters, etc.) or reminders that at least one purpose of fandom is giving voice to the voicelessThis is true and it is awesome, talking about the issues is certainly important... and yet I can't help but feel that this is all that a lot of us do. Talk about it, pat ourselves on the back and then go back to primarily reading/writing/discussing the same old thing. I think that those that quietly write/

[antihysteric]

I am always glad to hear more! You are really articulate, and what you say makes perfect sense.

I agree that speaking out in favor of change but not changing is pretty common, and I like the solution you suggest. That kind of quiet approach isn't necessarily going to draw attention - nothing like the meta and wankstorms we've had in the past - but it will actually be something different. A step in the right direction, when all the talking doesn't seem to get us anywhere.

Thank you for pointing me to that second fill! It was so good. *_*