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I smoke lots of reefer...I wouldn't hesitate to say that in the past three years, there have probably only been a week's(or so) worth of days where I went completely sober. Maybe two weeks. Either way, that's not a lot of days. Should I stop? Can I stop? Is my pot smoking in any way detrimental?
There was certainly a time where smoking harmed me more than it helped...senior year comes to mind. I was on drugs in school almost every day that year, and it was just a matter of time before shit happened. But was the pot really to blame, or was it other causal factors? I had just gotten out of a incredibly long and stupid relationship with a girl whom I despised, and I was celebrating. Had I preferred alcohol, I probably would have drank every day. The pot isn't to blame- it is my personality.
That was a long time ago, and I probably smoke more frequently than ever today. However, mary jane's role in my life has changed, and now she served much healthier purposes. I rarely go to class high, preferring to smoke pot afterwards as a way of unwinding. I spend entire nights doing homework, and I go out and smoke afterwards. Now pot enriches my life, instead of detracting from it.
But could I stop? Something tells me "no." I need something there, to help me unwind...I need an initiative...I need a non-human friend, someone I can be alone with.... I may have substance abuse problems, sure...but I don't really consider them harmful, so I am not seeking help for them. I guess that means they aren't really problems at all. It's not like I am my girlfriend- her weed is alcohol, which would be fine, if she didn't have such a bad reaction to it. That is a true problem...but lets not get into this again. I mean, even my parents have come to terms with my smoking, for they see that it no longer has an adverse effect on my life...
I don't consider my pot use a problem, and until someone convinces me otherwise, I will continue to smoke as much as possible.