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It kind of feels like I broke a piece off of me.
I feel terribly unwhole.
And I always thought those couples were silly, the ones who broke up and got back together 8 times.
I mean, obviously it didnt work the first... or second time.
But I understand now.
And I love him.
I hope he knows that.
That he knows that hasnt changed.
My excuse this time... being...
I love Evan. I want to be with Evan... for the rest of my life possibly. But I am seventeen years old. And I have yet to meet so many people. I flirt too much, I like other people. And I'm not ok with that. Because I want to be with him and only him and be happy. And I cant be right now.
I'm being so selfish.
And I spent all last night crying, to the point Lyszi drove over to comfort me and I fell asleep on her lap.
I do this to myself everytime.
I CANT BE HAPPY
I feel terribly unwhole.
And I always thought those couples were silly, the ones who broke up and got back together 8 times.
I mean, obviously it didnt work the first... or second time.
But I understand now.
And I love him.
I hope he knows that.
That he knows that hasnt changed.
My excuse this time... being...
I love Evan. I want to be with Evan... for the rest of my life possibly. But I am seventeen years old. And I have yet to meet so many people. I flirt too much, I like other people. And I'm not ok with that. Because I want to be with him and only him and be happy. And I cant be right now.
I'm being so selfish.
And I spent all last night crying, to the point Lyszi drove over to comfort me and I fell asleep on her lap.
I do this to myself everytime.
I CANT BE HAPPY