Free at last! Free at last! Debt free at last!
I've just finished signing nearly $6,000 worth of cheques. Tomorrow I'll be calling 2 places to confirm the exact amount owed, and who the cheques should be made to, and signing off on another $6,500, plus I will be giving my uncle $4,000 that he is owed for the funeral and other expenses. The sense of relief to finally be out of debt is phenomenal. I've always avoided debt; never taken out a loan, last had a credit card at 25 (a disaster, which is why I try to avoid being in debt now) so inheriting a stack of debts has been a hard road. It didn't matter that Denise's superannuation would eventually (finally!) pay out and cover it all; it was now my debt and I had no income with which to pay it. The council and water rates are being over paid, so I'll be ahead with them, which gives me a breather (J-Bear's rent pays for them, but Denise was behind when she died and I hadn't caught up.)
I wasn't prepared for how much of a weight off my shoulders it feels. It really does feel like something has been physically removed from me, and my shoulders are sitting higher. I also wasn't prepared for bursting into tears once I stopped signing. Paying off all the debts is a relief, but it also puts my Motherlove one step further away from me.
I wasn't prepared for how much of a weight off my shoulders it feels. It really does feel like something has been physically removed from me, and my shoulders are sitting higher. I also wasn't prepared for bursting into tears once I stopped signing. Paying off all the debts is a relief, but it also puts my Motherlove one step further away from me.