The divine order, and a story of surrendering to it...
Heya all.
After reading Karen's 'What's Up on Planet Earth' latest posting, (http://www.whatsuponplanetearth.com/latest.htm) i felt it appropiate to post a new blog entry.
I am experincing much of what she speaks of.
Until two weeks ago, i had been living in Melbourne for 7 years.
I was always tempted by the 'possibilties' that it held. Being into music, i was attracted as it's the creative hub on Melbourne.
My time down there has been spent plugging away in the city, working & getting caught up in the societal customs.
Drinking, smoking pot, and lack of sleep, along with stress, pollution, Electro-magnetic dissonance, and many other undesireables resulted in me suffering depression and total burn out.
Two weeks ago. I packed up my stuff and left.
Returning to my home town, a small, coastal village on the NSW south Coast, where my family is.
I don't know anyone here, except my family, and being a small town, i fear it'll take me a while to find some new friends.
It's scary.
But when i think about returning to Melbourne, i know i'll probably fall back into the old patterns.
Here i have support. A constant. Nature. The Ocean. Simplicity.
I still feel drawn back into the city. I think about all i'm missing out on. It's a strange struggle inside my mind at the moment.
I have no idea whats going to happen. I look ahead and can only see the dawning of tomorrow. Uncertain times...
But, somehow, when i search deep inside, this is how it's meant to be.
We are all in a state of transition at the moment. We're being urged to slow down and just be. The old temptations to run around, be productive, improve out lives just seem irrelevant. Our minds stuggle with the truth.
I find myself not knowing what to do. I've been doing lots of walking, singing, playing guitar. It sounds like paradise, and in a way it is. I just wish i had others to share it with. I miss being around people. I worry, being single, how i'll meet someone 'special' here.
But everything is meant to be as it is. And i don't feel a strong urge to change anything. Sure, i feel a fear of what will happen, but to react to that would be to run from the fear, and be controlled by it.
We are being urged to just be.
I've found in life that things we try hard to bring into our lives, that never come, are not meant to. Down the road we'll understand why, right now we might be frustrated, but divine order is in progress. Our higher, time-less self understands the path ahead. It is always guiding us. Syncronicity is our best friend. All we have to do is trust. Oh how the mind loves that ;)
So this is happening to me. and i'm telling you because i'm sure others out there are experiencing it as well. I want to know i'm not alone, and also, i want you to know that you're not alone.
I'm so glad i have the internet, it keeps me in touch with all those i have been blessed to have come into contact with.
Here's a small poem i read today :
"You are led
through your lifetime
by the inner learning creature,
the playful spiritual being
that is your real self
Don't turn away
from possible futures
before you're certain you don't have
anything to learn from them.
You're always free
to change your mind and
choose a different future,
or a different past."
(Illusions - The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah - Richard Bach)
A.
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After reading Karen's 'What's Up on Planet Earth' latest posting, (http://www.whatsuponplanetearth.com/latest.htm) i felt it appropiate to post a new blog entry.
I am experincing much of what she speaks of.
Until two weeks ago, i had been living in Melbourne for 7 years.
I was always tempted by the 'possibilties' that it held. Being into music, i was attracted as it's the creative hub on Melbourne.
My time down there has been spent plugging away in the city, working & getting caught up in the societal customs.
Drinking, smoking pot, and lack of sleep, along with stress, pollution, Electro-magnetic dissonance, and many other undesireables resulted in me suffering depression and total burn out.
Two weeks ago. I packed up my stuff and left.
Returning to my home town, a small, coastal village on the NSW south Coast, where my family is.
I don't know anyone here, except my family, and being a small town, i fear it'll take me a while to find some new friends.
It's scary.
But when i think about returning to Melbourne, i know i'll probably fall back into the old patterns.
Here i have support. A constant. Nature. The Ocean. Simplicity.
I still feel drawn back into the city. I think about all i'm missing out on. It's a strange struggle inside my mind at the moment.
I have no idea whats going to happen. I look ahead and can only see the dawning of tomorrow. Uncertain times...
But, somehow, when i search deep inside, this is how it's meant to be.
We are all in a state of transition at the moment. We're being urged to slow down and just be. The old temptations to run around, be productive, improve out lives just seem irrelevant. Our minds stuggle with the truth.
I find myself not knowing what to do. I've been doing lots of walking, singing, playing guitar. It sounds like paradise, and in a way it is. I just wish i had others to share it with. I miss being around people. I worry, being single, how i'll meet someone 'special' here.
But everything is meant to be as it is. And i don't feel a strong urge to change anything. Sure, i feel a fear of what will happen, but to react to that would be to run from the fear, and be controlled by it.
We are being urged to just be.
I've found in life that things we try hard to bring into our lives, that never come, are not meant to. Down the road we'll understand why, right now we might be frustrated, but divine order is in progress. Our higher, time-less self understands the path ahead. It is always guiding us. Syncronicity is our best friend. All we have to do is trust. Oh how the mind loves that ;)
So this is happening to me. and i'm telling you because i'm sure others out there are experiencing it as well. I want to know i'm not alone, and also, i want you to know that you're not alone.
I'm so glad i have the internet, it keeps me in touch with all those i have been blessed to have come into contact with.
Here's a small poem i read today :
"You are led
through your lifetime
by the inner learning creature,
the playful spiritual being
that is your real self
Don't turn away
from possible futures
before you're certain you don't have
anything to learn from them.
You're always free
to change your mind and
choose a different future,
or a different past."
(Illusions - The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah - Richard Bach)
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