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I don't think I have been this embarrassed before.
Here's a little story.... Last night I went to see some bands that I really look up to and who inspire me quite a bit. There were a lot of cool people there. It was shaping up to be rad. Since there was a little bit of time and since my whole band was there they asked us to play.... I was a bit dubious about it since it was spur of the moment and I had just gotten over a cold where I lost my voice (and now I have lost it again). But we said screw it we're usually comfortable enough with the songs we have so we played the most familiar ones... we sucked. Basically there is no other way to say it. Every single song we played got muddled in the middle and the end fell to pieces. My voice was so bad I shudder every time I remember it. We only played 3 songs. I reckon most people would have thought we were just jamming and making stuff up.
I know I am overreacting and anyone who saw me was probably thinking "What's wrong with ant?" when we finished... but I take it seriously and even a 10 minute set to me should be worthwhile doing. It's like saying all the work and effort we put into it is wasted. Actually I am the first to admit I am overreacting. So be it. Next time we do better. Thank you T for talking sense to me. The positive from this is that next time I know we will absolutely piss on what we did last night. The other thing is that every band goes through this. Words of wisdom... "I am sure all the bands you idolise have played crappy shows before..." (not a totally exact quote but the idea is there). Why is it such a big thing to me? Damn. I just cannot explain this. I am weird.
Here's a little story.... Last night I went to see some bands that I really look up to and who inspire me quite a bit. There were a lot of cool people there. It was shaping up to be rad. Since there was a little bit of time and since my whole band was there they asked us to play.... I was a bit dubious about it since it was spur of the moment and I had just gotten over a cold where I lost my voice (and now I have lost it again). But we said screw it we're usually comfortable enough with the songs we have so we played the most familiar ones... we sucked. Basically there is no other way to say it. Every single song we played got muddled in the middle and the end fell to pieces. My voice was so bad I shudder every time I remember it. We only played 3 songs. I reckon most people would have thought we were just jamming and making stuff up.
I know I am overreacting and anyone who saw me was probably thinking "What's wrong with ant?" when we finished... but I take it seriously and even a 10 minute set to me should be worthwhile doing. It's like saying all the work and effort we put into it is wasted. Actually I am the first to admit I am overreacting. So be it. Next time we do better. Thank you T for talking sense to me. The positive from this is that next time I know we will absolutely piss on what we did last night. The other thing is that every band goes through this. Words of wisdom... "I am sure all the bands you idolise have played crappy shows before..." (not a totally exact quote but the idea is there). Why is it such a big thing to me? Damn. I just cannot explain this. I am weird.