I am sleeping beauty...brenna sorry
Wow ok girls, do I have somethings to tell you
first of all my MS has it fatigue mood
holly crap
I was asleep for almost two full days
so I' really out of it
my mom made me get up for suppers and to go pee
I'm like a zombie
then at the supper table yesterday my dad
yells at me
about how if I don't start eating im going to the hospital
first of all I held in my grumpiness
because I no he has no idea how I feel
and its hard for him to watch me do this to my self
I'm getting used to his threats
I gave in and ate
cause I didn't want to listen to him
I also still made it to me goal
Haven't gained
still 95
yes and now my dad thinks I'm like carry
but then a few weeks ago he though I had everything under control
so he never had to worry about me
look the one thing I hate most
my underling reason I am the way I am
being compared to my sister
he's always like I know your not ok
your sad I can tell
your depressed I can't tell
I'm like actually i'v been happy
I was happy
now I'm not cause he made me think of everything
now I'm just mad
eating soda crackers and honey constantly and oranges...thats today
tuesday I can't even remember...Its really hazy
I took a full anti-depression pill, which I saw advertised on my tv about 5 minuets ago lol
so thats probably why I keep sleeping so much
so my 7 week 7 day cycle 1 calorie goal was= 3000 calories
I made it to = 2975 calories...really good
so I'm happy not sad...just irritated and sleepy lol
ok so basically I get to start a 7 week 7 day Cycle 2 =2500 calories
I have done this 7 day cycle thing for years
its how I calculate everything
weening basically
oh and I called Brenna
but her sister simon answered and she had moved out
so I new something was up
then simon sent me a text saying here is my number
call me whenever you need to talk
i'm here for yeah
miss yeah
was sweet and all
I always wanted to be closer friend with her but I know brenna would get jealous like how I get over my sister
so brenna called and i'm pretty much still drugged up on those pills
and i'm trying to be supportive but as soon as she said about not having an eating disorder and her mom wants to send her to a clinic
I'm just said don't be to mad brenna she has her reasons
then she snapped at me
and I couldn't think right
so I said you know brenna I got to go i'll send you a message
I am on you side 100 percent
I love you
i'm sorry
........I feel so hypercritical...she needed me and i bailed...I even called back but she was out...
first of all my MS has it fatigue mood
holly crap
I was asleep for almost two full days
so I' really out of it
my mom made me get up for suppers and to go pee
I'm like a zombie
then at the supper table yesterday my dad
yells at me
about how if I don't start eating im going to the hospital
first of all I held in my grumpiness
because I no he has no idea how I feel
and its hard for him to watch me do this to my self
I'm getting used to his threats
I gave in and ate
cause I didn't want to listen to him
I also still made it to me goal
Haven't gained
still 95
yes and now my dad thinks I'm like carry
but then a few weeks ago he though I had everything under control
so he never had to worry about me
look the one thing I hate most
my underling reason I am the way I am
being compared to my sister
he's always like I know your not ok
your sad I can tell
your depressed I can't tell
I'm like actually i'v been happy
I was happy
now I'm not cause he made me think of everything
now I'm just mad
eating soda crackers and honey constantly and oranges...thats today
tuesday I can't even remember...Its really hazy
I took a full anti-depression pill, which I saw advertised on my tv about 5 minuets ago lol
so thats probably why I keep sleeping so much
so my 7 week 7 day cycle 1 calorie goal was= 3000 calories
I made it to = 2975 calories...really good
so I'm happy not sad...just irritated and sleepy lol
ok so basically I get to start a 7 week 7 day Cycle 2 =2500 calories
I have done this 7 day cycle thing for years
its how I calculate everything
weening basically
oh and I called Brenna
but her sister simon answered and she had moved out
so I new something was up
then simon sent me a text saying here is my number
call me whenever you need to talk
i'm here for yeah
miss yeah
was sweet and all
I always wanted to be closer friend with her but I know brenna would get jealous like how I get over my sister
so brenna called and i'm pretty much still drugged up on those pills
and i'm trying to be supportive but as soon as she said about not having an eating disorder and her mom wants to send her to a clinic
I'm just said don't be to mad brenna she has her reasons
then she snapped at me
and I couldn't think right
so I said you know brenna I got to go i'll send you a message
I am on you side 100 percent
I love you
i'm sorry
........I feel so hypercritical...she needed me and i bailed...I even called back but she was out...