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sunday night. it's cold outside, there is a light dusting of snow and i smell vegan shortbread.
days have been passing quickly. around christmas i always forget that the year is ending. it must be all the glitter, lights and annoyances that distract me from the fact that i have to start a new year. when i finaly realize a new year is beginning i think of the past year and how i can correct my problems for the coming months.
this morning on the seabus this chinese man from montreal told me i was very stylish in broken english. i kind of laughed but he was serious.
my new job is lovely. i get to work with some amazing people! i work with lovely tegan who i went to school with last year and is now finishing up her second year. chelsea who is also in her second year in the studio program. kaylea who is studying animation at capilano and knows my friend bruce who tegan and chelsea also know. cori [now here is a crazy story] i went to venice with cori two years ago. when she walked in on our first training shift neither of us could believe our eyes as we haven't seen each other since that trip. she only got back from europe two months ago. that crazy girl. she tells me she has many a drunken photograph of me.
now for an even crazier story!
today at work i met eva. it turns out that eva has been to lanquin. she stayed at el retiro where laryssa works and knows laryssa. laryssa was going to be working in rio dulce at that orphanage, and yes, eva was as well. it also turns out that eva knows me and laryssas friend kelly because eva was in the same program with her at capilano. seriously the world is so small! it was really nice to talk to someone about lanquin and semuc champey and in typical el retiro fashion eva tells me she doesn't remember too much about lanquin because she was drunk most of the time. sillyness!
today at work i also saw the lovely susanna blunt who i went to school with! it was so nice to see her and talk to her about the work she has been doing. she is now in the art institute at capilano instead of the general studio program. i'm going to go up to school after christmas to see her work and the rest of the programs work this year. as well as talk to my lovely old teachers!
i have also made a lovely coffee shop music lovin' friend. his name is robin and he works at the bean around the world at lonsdale quay. we got to talking about music last week when i went to apply at opus. we were discussing sigur ros and what language they sang in. now when i go in and he's there some grand music is always playing! yesterday it was andrew bird. i told him he needed to hear dosh and this one sigur ros album i have that he hadn't heard. i told him i'd burn him some copies and he was so gratefull he gave me my london fog for free. today i brought in the cd's and discussed more music and he again gave me my drink for free. he says whenever he's working i can have my tea for free! [oh my. that rhymes...] anyway now we are lovely music trading buddies! i am so pleased to make new friends near my work. i'm also friends with the older chinese man who own the corner store next to opus. i buy my apple juice there.
now for some strange news. i think i am suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. ever since that guy climbed into yngvilds window in guatemala i haven't been able to be alone in my house at night. i thought when i left lanquin it would go away but it seems to be getting worse. tonight when i got home i couldn't even step into my kitchen because of the fear someone was watching me through the window. i locked all the doors, turned on the television and a bunch of lights and took a shower. i then sat in the shower shaking uncontrollably and verging on tears because i was certain someone was in the house with me. i actually peeked out the door before i walked out. i wanted to check my email three and a half hours ago but could not go into my basement for the fear that someone was there or would be outside one of the windows. instead i sat in my living room, hiding my face from the view of the kitchen window and watched television.
i always have this feeling that someone is watching me. i am paranoid in my own house if i am home alone. i don't feel safe at all. when my family goes to sleep i can't stay in the basement because of a fear that someone may be upstairs other than them.
this is ridiculous and i can't get rid of it.
anyway, chritmas is approaching which means ryan is leaving, on saturday morning. it's the one time of the year i always want to spend with him and we are always apart. speaking of christmas i have not done my shopping yet... well some but barely. i haven't done enough baking and i don't even know what i'm making for christmas dinner yet! i also still need to make christmas cards! bah!
friday is lindsays christmas party and i have nothing to wear. saturday is the old school gang get together and drink beer night! hopefully there will be snow so we can sled.
whenever i listen to dosh's album pure trash i think of flying to toronto with ryan.
i love the why? cover of xiu xiu's wig master.
i want to cuddle and make tea.
goodnight knitted and knotted friends.
days have been passing quickly. around christmas i always forget that the year is ending. it must be all the glitter, lights and annoyances that distract me from the fact that i have to start a new year. when i finaly realize a new year is beginning i think of the past year and how i can correct my problems for the coming months.
this morning on the seabus this chinese man from montreal told me i was very stylish in broken english. i kind of laughed but he was serious.
my new job is lovely. i get to work with some amazing people! i work with lovely tegan who i went to school with last year and is now finishing up her second year. chelsea who is also in her second year in the studio program. kaylea who is studying animation at capilano and knows my friend bruce who tegan and chelsea also know. cori [now here is a crazy story] i went to venice with cori two years ago. when she walked in on our first training shift neither of us could believe our eyes as we haven't seen each other since that trip. she only got back from europe two months ago. that crazy girl. she tells me she has many a drunken photograph of me.
now for an even crazier story!
today at work i met eva. it turns out that eva has been to lanquin. she stayed at el retiro where laryssa works and knows laryssa. laryssa was going to be working in rio dulce at that orphanage, and yes, eva was as well. it also turns out that eva knows me and laryssas friend kelly because eva was in the same program with her at capilano. seriously the world is so small! it was really nice to talk to someone about lanquin and semuc champey and in typical el retiro fashion eva tells me she doesn't remember too much about lanquin because she was drunk most of the time. sillyness!
today at work i also saw the lovely susanna blunt who i went to school with! it was so nice to see her and talk to her about the work she has been doing. she is now in the art institute at capilano instead of the general studio program. i'm going to go up to school after christmas to see her work and the rest of the programs work this year. as well as talk to my lovely old teachers!
i have also made a lovely coffee shop music lovin' friend. his name is robin and he works at the bean around the world at lonsdale quay. we got to talking about music last week when i went to apply at opus. we were discussing sigur ros and what language they sang in. now when i go in and he's there some grand music is always playing! yesterday it was andrew bird. i told him he needed to hear dosh and this one sigur ros album i have that he hadn't heard. i told him i'd burn him some copies and he was so gratefull he gave me my london fog for free. today i brought in the cd's and discussed more music and he again gave me my drink for free. he says whenever he's working i can have my tea for free! [oh my. that rhymes...] anyway now we are lovely music trading buddies! i am so pleased to make new friends near my work. i'm also friends with the older chinese man who own the corner store next to opus. i buy my apple juice there.
now for some strange news. i think i am suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. ever since that guy climbed into yngvilds window in guatemala i haven't been able to be alone in my house at night. i thought when i left lanquin it would go away but it seems to be getting worse. tonight when i got home i couldn't even step into my kitchen because of the fear someone was watching me through the window. i locked all the doors, turned on the television and a bunch of lights and took a shower. i then sat in the shower shaking uncontrollably and verging on tears because i was certain someone was in the house with me. i actually peeked out the door before i walked out. i wanted to check my email three and a half hours ago but could not go into my basement for the fear that someone was there or would be outside one of the windows. instead i sat in my living room, hiding my face from the view of the kitchen window and watched television.
i always have this feeling that someone is watching me. i am paranoid in my own house if i am home alone. i don't feel safe at all. when my family goes to sleep i can't stay in the basement because of a fear that someone may be upstairs other than them.
this is ridiculous and i can't get rid of it.
anyway, chritmas is approaching which means ryan is leaving, on saturday morning. it's the one time of the year i always want to spend with him and we are always apart. speaking of christmas i have not done my shopping yet... well some but barely. i haven't done enough baking and i don't even know what i'm making for christmas dinner yet! i also still need to make christmas cards! bah!
friday is lindsays christmas party and i have nothing to wear. saturday is the old school gang get together and drink beer night! hopefully there will be snow so we can sled.
whenever i listen to dosh's album pure trash i think of flying to toronto with ryan.
i love the why? cover of xiu xiu's wig master.
i want to cuddle and make tea.
goodnight knitted and knotted friends.