So for the record...
So for the record...having feelings SUCKS! I had some fun tonight. Smoked alot. Lit some shit on fire. Rubbed one out. Talked to some people. Hung out with said people...
But in the back of my mind, I couldn't shake the thoughts of CJ. I had to tell you all her name...because I just KNOW that the suspense was killing you. Anyway. I was hanging out with her, Ashley, Chris, and Brek. We chilled in my back yard for most of the time they were here. I tried my hardest, but I couldn't stop thinking about her. It pisses me off. That's why having feelings sucks major gonad. I have no idea how to handle this, because I still REALLY like her. But in the same respect, we've decided NOT to go anywhere with this. (and when I say "we", I mean "she") She doesn't care for me as much as I care for her. I can understand why for the most part. I just thought things would be different than ALL of the other girls I've liked.(save Tiffany) And even then, I've always thought that dhe was persuaded by her friends to go out with me, and didn't really want to. (Tell me if I'm way off balance here, kiddo...and be honest too) I had always hoped that I'd find the perfect girl for me...and I thought I had. In case you couldn't tell, I really hadn't. So even though I didn't show it,(to MY knowledge) I was thinking about her MOST of the time she was over. I think about her EVERY time she's over. And what's sad is that I think about her even when she's NOT over...which, I think, makes me obsessive...right? I now understand why girls don't go out with me. It's because I tell other people that I like them first, and then I tell them. The only girl that I kept tp myself about was Tiffany. We DID end up going out...although the relationship was rather fruitless. By that I mean that we only saw each other 3 times in the MONTH we were going out, but still...at least SHE said yes...and I know why. I'm just NOT going to talk about girls to ANYONE anymore, because that way, I at least have a better chance of them saying yes. If anyone has any other ideas as to how to get the girls I like to like me in return, I'm all ears...and maybe a little mouth. I also need ideas as to how I should go about getting over CJ. I'm pretty sure that EVERYONE who reads this has had WAY more experience with this than myself, so I'm not sure what to do. Again, I'm all ears...and maybe a little mouth. Let me know...PLEASE! I'm begging here. I'm going to go now, and like...watch some TV or something.
Later,
-B-
But in the back of my mind, I couldn't shake the thoughts of CJ. I had to tell you all her name...because I just KNOW that the suspense was killing you. Anyway. I was hanging out with her, Ashley, Chris, and Brek. We chilled in my back yard for most of the time they were here. I tried my hardest, but I couldn't stop thinking about her. It pisses me off. That's why having feelings sucks major gonad. I have no idea how to handle this, because I still REALLY like her. But in the same respect, we've decided NOT to go anywhere with this. (and when I say "we", I mean "she") She doesn't care for me as much as I care for her. I can understand why for the most part. I just thought things would be different than ALL of the other girls I've liked.(save Tiffany) And even then, I've always thought that dhe was persuaded by her friends to go out with me, and didn't really want to. (Tell me if I'm way off balance here, kiddo...and be honest too) I had always hoped that I'd find the perfect girl for me...and I thought I had. In case you couldn't tell, I really hadn't. So even though I didn't show it,(to MY knowledge) I was thinking about her MOST of the time she was over. I think about her EVERY time she's over. And what's sad is that I think about her even when she's NOT over...which, I think, makes me obsessive...right? I now understand why girls don't go out with me. It's because I tell other people that I like them first, and then I tell them. The only girl that I kept tp myself about was Tiffany. We DID end up going out...although the relationship was rather fruitless. By that I mean that we only saw each other 3 times in the MONTH we were going out, but still...at least SHE said yes...and I know why. I'm just NOT going to talk about girls to ANYONE anymore, because that way, I at least have a better chance of them saying yes. If anyone has any other ideas as to how to get the girls I like to like me in return, I'm all ears...and maybe a little mouth. I also need ideas as to how I should go about getting over CJ. I'm pretty sure that EVERYONE who reads this has had WAY more experience with this than myself, so I'm not sure what to do. Again, I'm all ears...and maybe a little mouth. Let me know...PLEASE! I'm begging here. I'm going to go now, and like...watch some TV or something.
Later,
-B-