If you'd like some insight...
Somewhere in a parallell universe, the grass is blue, and the sky is green...and my alter-ego is slim, sexy, and he's the guy that ALL the girls want. Unfortunately, this ISN'T that universe. I'm fat, I'm NOT sexy at all.....and I guess that's why I don't "get the girls." I want to love someone and have them love me in return. I guess I've just been really down since last night. I LOVE KRISTY....and she...loves Matt. I'm definitely glad that it WAS Matt that won her affection over me...instead of someone who'd treat her like shit. The only problem I see in that is that it happens ALL the time. With CJ, it was Brek...and then with Kristy, it was Matt...and I'm just tired of thinking every time that it'll be different. It's ENTIRELY possible...but it NEVER happens. I have the capability to love...yet nobody believes me. I want to just meet someone that takes my breath away...and have her feel the same about me. My phone's banner says: "Love over Sex." The reason is that I'd take love over sex ANY DAY of the week. That's what I want now...and that's what I'll want 30 years from now. I don't get how people can tell me that I'm like THE perfect guy...and then not want to be with me......
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