Song Fic: Torn
Title: Torn by LeToya
Length: Oneshot
Parings: Jaeho, minor HeeYun
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: NC-16+ (small sex scene)
Beta: sujudbskbb
Summary: Jaejoong are torn...
Disclaimer: Jaeho and Heechul are not mine to claimed but to themselves, songs and lyrics belonged to LaToya and record co. respectively. Story plot are owned by blurmeese, NOT MINE!!
A/N: OMG!!!!! I'm so SO sorry for being gone over a month and wind up going on a mini-haitus session!!! T_____T I have my reason; my laptop was taken away until i can find a job and FINALLY I GOT ONE! Don't ask when and where but just know that I got one and I'm back. :D At the time, I can only check for updates and comments on my phone and it sucks horribly. :-P
Anyway, I'm currently still typing up the sequel to the APToL rite now but it should be done sometime next week if i push myself. THIS oneshot however, I finished a LOOOONG time ago and got it betaed but my friend blurmeese was away so I wanted until she came back and read it so that's why i delayed it. I'll be writing more song fics since there are really good songs that can be written for oneshots so look forward. :DDDD
This oneshot is a remake of blurmeese 's "Facts in Fiction" story incorporated with Letoya's song Torn. I suggest you listen to the song while reading, it actually makes me want to cry a few times. This is my first angst oneshot. Just to let you all try it out to see do I have skills for it. ENJOY!!!!
A part of me wants to leave you alone.
A part of me wants for you to come home.
A part of me says I'm living a lie.
(And I'm better off without you.)
A part of me says to think it through.
A part of me says I'm over you.
A part of me wants to say goodbye.
A part of me is asking why...
Opening his eyes to the starry night with a shining moon hanging up in the beautiful sky, he sighed in sorrow, lying on the hood and the windshield of the car. He had been there after he got off work, wanting to rest his mind from all the mixed feelings that were conflicting inside of him. After meeting with "him", he drove straight to the Han River, contemplating and attempting to sort out all of these parts of him that were telling himself what he should do. But honestly, he doesn't know anymore. Why was he in such a mess like this? Is it because he was stupid not to let go of such a ridiculous love that he had to drown himself into this sea of despair? Or maybe, just maybe, because he love "him" too much that he couldn't stand the fact that "he" and that stuck up boss were sleeping together when we were doing exact same thing?
How did it all happen?
**Flashback**
It was months ago when they first met each other. He was working at a publishing company with the world's most outrageous boss in the era, Kim Heechul, who was always complaining and yelling and practically thinks all of the workers were idiots and he was the sun so without him, they die out completely.
While working, he was writing his own story that he know would be a guaranteed bestseller. He was caught by his best friend at work, Kim Junsu, and then the "drama queen" made his appearance and called Junsu into his office while telling him to meet his new assistant.
**"You're what?" he asked.
"His new... personal... assistant?"
"Oh. My. Mother. On. A. Tricycle."**
That was pretty much all he had to say to summarize the fact that someone like "him" would be working for the Queen Heechul. Someone who he, Kim Jaejoong, falls in love with and someone like "him" betrayed him by sleeping with the androgynous man himself.
"He" goes by the name of JUNG YUNHO.
For the three months or so, Yunho has been going through tough times, pleasing Heechul the best he could in hopes of not making a mistake to get scolded. Jaejoong has been by his side every steps of the way to get him to feel comfortable to the surrounding and they eventually became good friends. When it was his birthday, he didn't get to celebrate it at home. No, he got to celebrate with a bunch of paperwork on his desk, seeing elephants dancing the can-can inside his head. He thought he was about to lose his mind when Jaejoong showed up with a cupcake in his hand, wishing him a happy birthday. Yunho felt happy and relief washes over him. That is, until the devil himself ruined it and demanded Yunho to come inside the office.
They both were told to be at the club Re-fuse and if they were to be late, they would say goodbye to their heads and the new printer if it got stuck on it. They drink, they laugh, they play around, not knowing the alcohol had seeped into their systems and lust formed in their eyes. Jaejoong wanted to more or less deny the temptation of dragging Yunho away and fucking him till the morning but the latter had wanted and needed for that too. So, in the end, they give themselves in for the night and Jaejoong had fallen in love with the new assistant, not knowing that Yunho had committed a hidden sin.
**End of Flashback**
A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be here with you.
And every time I think we're over and done you do something to get me back loving you.
And you got me just torn.
Jaejoong smiled sadly at that memory which, up until now, was still etched deep inside his brain and thought if it were foolish of him to have fallen in love in such a short time. He lost the smile when he remembered what happen next after that.
**Flashbacks**
It was a few days after both Yunho and Jaejoong had become a couple and very few knew about it. They occasionally had done it once or twice and caught a few people's attentions but, nonetheless, no one said anything about it, including one person in particular. It was late one night when everyone went home except for three people. Jaejoong wanted to take Yunho home to spend their night together but Yunho had said he had to finish something or else Heechul will rain down elephants on him. Jaejoong took his words for it and left the building and almost had missed the scene if it weren't for the potted plants he had forgotten to take. He went back and was leaving until he heard moaning inside the office and got curious. He went up close and opened the door slightly to look. Shocked, he pushed the door open wide and the two inside still did not notice his horrified expression.
His fucking girly boss was freakin' fucking the one who he was going out with, the one who he had fallen in love with.
**"Jaejoong and I..." he starts slowly, drawing away to speak. "are happy."
"Oh, really?" Heechul pulls Yunho back to fuck him on the table, furious thrusts that makes the wood shudder under them.**
He decided to make his appearance to them, answering the question for Yunho since he was too busy moaning to answer.
**"Really."
They both realized it wasn't either of them having spoken. Their eyes wandered to the door and Yunho's eyes opened as wide as an owl's.**
Jaejoong doesn't even bother to listen. He just left the building, not caring if Yunho would run after him or continue where he and Heechul had left off.
**End of Flashback**
Jaejoong closed his eyes tightly and clenched his hands as hard as he can. He could not believe he had to witness that act and caught Yunho in it. After that night, he changed his mood from a happy and cheerful one to a grudge-holding attitude, growling at anyone within three radiuses and busies himself in his work and story to drown the pain he's holding in. Junsu obviously saw that and immediately demanded an explanation from him. Jaejoong knew it couldn't be avoided so he told him everything. Junsu convinced him to talk it out with Yunho but Jaejoong quickly dismissed the idea because he was definitely not in the mood to see or listen to the Yunho's lies as his heart cannot handle any more suffering and damages he was going through.
He didn't bother to spare Yunho a single glance and just looked straight at his computer, eat, and go home. It wasn't any different that day as he as finishing his last thoughts for the story for the day when...
**Words are elusive, flamboyant little things if you get your hands on them. There's always something else behind them, like how most disappointments reek of anger when you care to look close enough, or how love is tinged with the green tint of envy to some. Wordswordswords all wrong
"Care to listen to mine?"
Jaejoong sits upright, stiff and unresponsive as he flips the monitor off and stares ahead, refusing to turn.
"Jaejoong..."
"Don't. Don't even start."
"I'm not starting anything. What if I just want to end..."
"Then it's over." There's a hollow laugh from Jaejoong's part as he stands, walking to the elevator with Yunho trailing behind him from lobby to car park.
He knew for sure Junsu and his big mouth would cause him trouble and could not believe that bastard would have the guts to see his face like this. Jaejoong just wished he can disappear and never have to face the problem but he understands it doesn't work that way and he has to face the problem.
"Aren't you going to--"
"No. I'm not going to listen and I'm not going to 'try to understand the situation', Yunho. From my point of view, there's nothing left to understand."
Jaejoong gets into his car and fumbles with the keys, dropping them onto the ground as he does and Yunho picks them up gingerly, holding them between his fingers just out of Jaejoong's reach.
"Give them to me."
"Since we're all talking in the negative tense today, I'm going to say no. Not until you hear me out."
There is a slight roll of eyes and folding of arms but Jaejoong doesn't make to get out of the car.
"He offered me a job. Not the best job in the world per se, but a job. I needed on badly, Jae--"
"You needed a job, he needed a quick lay. It makes an awful lot of sense."
"It's not like that."
Jaejoong got up, shoving Yunho away as so they stand in the open now, voices carrying far.
"What do you want me to say? Oh, everything is just fine and I don't give a fuck that you're going at it with Heechul. Is that it?"
"I'm sorry."
"'I'm sorry' doesn't cut it."
"Then what will? Because I swear to god, I'm not lying when I say that I would do anything to erase this but what the problem is that I can't. Tell me what's the next best thing to do, Jaejoong, and I'll try."
Silence, heavy and awkward, thumps in their ears and Jaejoong imagines what it would be like to walk away now, just walk away and--
Yunho kisses him, hard and full of wanting, an unsaid apology pressed (even though unwanted) into his lips. **
Jaejoong wants to give in and just kiss back. He wants to hug the man in front of him and pretend nothing happened and just smile to him to reassure the latter. But something did happen. Something, which he cannot erase and was constantly blinking inside his mind while the other man was still kissing him. Something like that which got him to be boiled over, pushing Yunho away from him and in a flash Yunho's head was moved to the side with a red mark across his cheek.
Yunho stood frozen in that position, eyes open wide and jaw dropped as low as it can. He could not believe what just happen or the pain that was numbing his cheek. He turns his head around to see an angry Jaejoong with red blood-shot eyes and two watery lines falling from it.
"Jaejoong..." he whispered.
"Who do you take me for? Do you think I am as naive as Heechul took me and thought you could just slobber on my mouth as an apology as if nothing has happened!? YOU LIED TO ME! YOU BETRAYED ME! I cared for you and helped the best way I can to make you feel comfortable despite you already nestling yourself or-- you know what!? Heechul actually makes you feel comfortable by putting his freakin' dick inside your ass! I..." He paused for a moment and those fierce eyes had turn into a pair of hurtful and helpless ones that Yunho couldn't bear to gaze into.
"... I love you."
Yunho opened his eyes even bigger and wider as he could not believe what he had just heard. Jaejoong actually loves him? He knows they both slept together and assume Jaejoong has feelings for him but actually love him in that way?
"I love you and thought you actually loved me back, but I guess I was nothing more than a toy for you to play around with during the times Heechul doesn't need you." He let out a mocking laugh to himself and stared into Yunho's ample eyes.
"We're over, Yunho."
He quickly swiped his keys from Yunho's hand while he was still frozen and turns on the engine. Yunho heard the loud engine roaring, snapped out of his stunned state and banged on the window.
"Jaejoong! Please open the door! Listen to me, please!" he begged.
"There's nothing to listen to, Yunho. I know now that Heechul was right about one thing. I am an idiot. An idiot who thought he was able to finally have his happy ending."
Yunho was in panic, thinking that Jaejoong was about to take off. He rushed to the front and places his upper body onto the hood of the car, hugging it tightly even though the loud machine was hurting his ears and the frightful heat was stinging him but he didn't care.
"NO! I won't let you leave!" he yelled out.
Jaejoong was shocked at the sight right then, not knowing what to do. Yunho was holding onto his car and if he was not careful, he could hurt the man if he starts to drive.
"What are you doing!? Get out of the way!" He rolled down the window and screamed over the engine.
"NO!" he yelled again. "I won't let you go until you listen to me!" Yunho hollered back.
Jaejoong didn't understand why the man would go to such an extent to have him listen to his reason. What is there to listen to other than the very fact that was already presented to his eyes? Could it be... just maybe... Yunho...
The image flashed back in his eyes again; that betraying scene has come back to haunt him again, clouding his mind and judgment and refueling his rage. He couldn't stand it anymore and had to get out there now.
He pushed the lever back to the letter "R" and reversed back a few meters away. Yunho did not expect that move and fell down to the ground, completely flat. He kneeled up and saw Jaejoong revving up the engine and drive straight towards him. He thought Jaejoong decided to run him over but in the last second, Jaejoong swerved to the right and drove off. He was left there kneeling with both arms at the side, swinging loosely and tears falling out of his eyes. He tried to make it stop but it didn't stop and instead, it turns to a loud cry, droplets gushing out of his swollen eyes like fountain.
"Jae..."
**End of Flashback**
Torn in between the two. (Oh yeah)
Cuz I really wanna be with you.
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (I really want to be with you)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
And you got me just torn in between the two. (In between the two)
Cuz I really wanna be with you. (Be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (You alone)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
Jaejoong looked up into the beautiful night sky and wondered how it looked so serene and dazzling with its twinkling stars. Whenever he has troubles or worry, he would look into the sky and feel all weariness of life drain out of his body temporarily. Yet, this night he can only sigh, not being able to feel the relief in his heart, which was now contorted with discomfort with the wound Yunho had conflicted onto him. He was practically torn into pieces, telling him to do this, to do that.
Why? Why does it have to be him; just when he had thought he had found true love, fate had to play him, twisting his life into a spiral of doom. He knows he has two choices with no questions asked: to love or to hate Yunho. But which one?
He got out his phone, which was turned off because he didn't want to talk to anyone. He turned it on and saw he has 46 missed calls and 38 messages, four of which was from Junsu (including one message). The rest were from... Yunho? Why did he call him so much and leave so many messages?
He opened his message inbox and listened to one from Junsu and he put his phone at least three feet from his face.
Message One:
"KIM JAEJOONG!! WHERE THE HECK HAS YOU BEEN!? I LOOKED EVERYWHERE FOR YOU AND CALLED YOU BUT YOU WOULDN'T PICK UP! CALL ME BACK OR ELSE I'LL TAKE MY TUSHIE AND RAMPAGE TO YOUR HOUSE WHICH I WILL WRECK UNTIL YOU SHOW UP, YOU HEAR!?!"
Jaejoong sighed and told himself to call him back later or Junsu will really destroy his apartment. He continued to the next message.
Message Two:
"Jaejoong-ah, where are you? Why haven't you picked up your phone? Please call me."
Message Three:
"Jaejoong, why haven't you called me back yet? Do you hate me that much? I'm sorry for everything. I didn't mean to lie to you. I really need to talk to you, please."
Message Nine:
"Jaejoong, are you okay? Are you hurt or did something happen to you? Please call me back even if you don't want to talk to me. At least give me a call so I'll know you're safe.
Message Seventeen:
"Jaejoong... Jaejoong, please tell me you're okay. I'm worried about you, honestly... I swear, please don't get hurt or else I'll regret the rest of my life. Please call me back."
Message Twenty-Two:
"Why haven't you called me back yet? Oh my god, are you okay? Please don't freak me out like that, Jae. Please, please. I beg you, call me now. I'm scared... I'm scared, Jae."
Message Thirty-Three:
"You must be angry with me for filling up your phone with my messages, right? I won't bother you if you don't want me to but I just want... I just want to hear your voice, Jae. Your voice is the only thing that I need right now to keep me calm and sane."
There were no issues when we started out.
It was cool.
It was everything that love's about.
But something happened.
Plus I feel it's over now.
(Cuz I can't understand you now.) Now oh
(I just can't understand you now.)
A part of me says it's all my fault.
A part of me says "he ain't what you want."
A part of me says to get my bags.
A part of me says I can't do that
Message Thirty-Eight:
"Jaejoong-ah, this will be my last message. I promise. If you don't want to call me back, I understand. After all, who would've if they were in your position? But...Jaejoong, I want to say I'm sorry. Truly, I am. You must think I'm lying to you but I'm really, really sorry. I know I caused you a lot of pain and that you are suffering, Jae, but I am no better than you. If not, worse. I feel like I'm being cut up into pieces and being grinded into nothing but pain and sadness. And the knife is the pain you're going through, cutting me slowly and painfully to the point I want to go crazy. I... I have my reasons, Jae. I know it sounds like an excuse, but my family is poor and I'm the eldest child. My sister needs me, my parents need me, and so I can't just let them suffer like that... We were so poor to the point where we had to live in the streets for a while before my parent's finally got a job and managed to rent a small apartment. But it wasn't enough so I told myself, 'I can't let my family be in this mess, so I need to make money in any way I can to support them.'
When Heechul offered me the job back then, he said I can have it on one condition. It was that I have to be his toy, a whore for him to have sex with. I thought it would be stupid at first but I was desperate, so I had to accept. It was just sex and pleasure and on the contrary, I have the job and money. I get to work and have fun at the same time so I thought it was no big deal. Hehe... little did I know that I was wrong... when you stepped into my life. In the beginning, we were just friends so it didn't affect me when I was being fucked by our boss but it was that night we were together when it did change. You gave me passion and love. I was never shown compassion and caring like that and, unlike Heechul, you were gentle and weren't rough to me. It was such a good feeling to be with you, I just couldn't let you go but at the same time, I couldn't forget my obligations to Heechul, so I decided to have both you and Heechul the best I could. Having sex with you, working, Heechul fucking me, and then you doing me; it worked out just fine until you caught us that night. I wanted to run out and explain but I couldn't because I know whatever I said, you would think I'd be lying to you. But, after that day, I couldn't stand it anymore so I listened to Junsu and sought you out and I was hoping you would forgive me.
I... *soft cry*... I mean it when I say I'll do the next best thing to... *soft cry*... to get your f-forgiveness, Jae. I-I-I can't let you go... I really... *soft cry*... can't let you leave me. I need you, Jae. *soft cry* If you leave me, you already took my life away... I'll just be a shell with no soul.... no heart... because it all belongs to you. I don't know why it happened when we only knew each other in just a short time, but I feel if I let go of this chance... *soft cry*... I lose everything in life. Jae, I... I... I love you. *soft cry* I know you won't believe it but I truly love you, Jaejoong. If you leave me now, then... *pause with soft crying*... then you might as well take my life because I know the moment you disappear from my life... I can't handle the pain of losing you. That is all I'm going to say. I truly wish I could turn back in time and change everything so it wouldn't have ended up like this but even if I have to pay the price of knowing you through pain... I wouldn't regret it for the rest of my life and so on. Before I hang up, I'll say this again. Maybe for the last time... Kim Jaejoong, I eternally love you now. I'm a slave for your love, a beggar for your heart, and an addict for your soul.
So many times I... (I was ready to go)
So many times I... (Had my foot out the door)
So many times I... (I thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man)
Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused.
Cuz I keep fighting myself for you. (I don't know how much more I can take but I can't feel this way)
(You got me so torn)
Tears fell in droplets one after another, nonstop, like a river flow. It was such a soothing effect to listen to his voice but it adds up to the sadness that was swallowing him up right now. When he hears Yunho crying, he feels like knives are being chucked into his heart, bleeding heavily. Is this what he wants now, to have an endless, pained world for both of them? He loves Yunho, but does he love him enough to embrace it all?
......
He had his answer. He made his choice. He picked which torn part to listen to.
Torn in between the two. (Oh yeah)
Cuz I really wanna be with you. (I really wanna be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone. (But I don't know)
And you got me just torn in between the two. (Should I stay or should I go)
Cuz I really wanna be with you. (I don't know)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (You alone)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone. (You alone)
At the company, Yunho let out a deep sigh about that night. He called Jaejoong so many times but never got a reply. He felt defeated and hurt. It had been a week when he last heard of Jaejoong. They say he had taken a vacation and won't be back for awhile. He knows Jaejoong is avoiding him now. He knows Jaejoong won't forgive him, won't love him anymore. He knows that Jaejoong will not love him anymore. A teardrop fell down from his eyes at the frightful thought.
"Yunho, I need you inside the office," the voice behind him spoke, waking him up from his despair thought.
He quickly wiped the tear away and followed his boss into the office. All the blinds were shut and the door was locked. The next thing he knew, a pair of hands spun him around and lips was attacking his own. He resisted and stopped it in time before those hands traveled down any further.
"What are you doing? We're in the office."
"Who cares? I'm horny and it's your job to help me." Hands rushed to unclothe Yunho but he grabbed and pulled them away from his body.
"I'm not going to do it where everyone can hear us."
Heechul donned a dark and uptight look at Yunho, causing the worker to cringe in fear. He felt his hair being yanked back and a hand covering his mouth from screaming.
"Listen, you slut. I paid you to be my fucking whore so I expect you to do your work. Don't think that just because Fairy Boy caught us doesn't mean you're going to end it here. Let me tell you, either you get on your knees and let me fuck your mouth or I'll kick you out of here faster than you can say your own name." He let go and forced Yunho down on his knees, head facing his groin.
He looked up at Heechul and realized he was right. He needed this job and now that he no longer has Jaejoong, he might as well do his job before Heechul changes his mind. His hands fumbled with the belt of Heechul's pants. Unbuckling it, he pulled it down slowly and the free erection pointed at him straight in the face. He opened his mouth and let it invade his mouth forcefully and used his tongue to lick it. Small moans were heard above him and he let out another teardrop.
"Jaejoong..."
Jaejoong waited inside the elevator to get to his floor and walked straight out, aiming for one place. He kept walking, ignoring people staring at him, commenting that he was not suppose to be back and how he was dressed. He was clad in a white, sleeveless undershirt and low V-neck vest, dark slacks (IMAGEhere) with nice looking shoes and piercings in both ears. His hair has been dyed from normal black to shiny platinum blond and his nerdy glasses were replaced with a pair of dark sunglasses. Many eyes were staring at him in amazement and aphrodisiac at the fact that the well known "Fairy Boy" turned into a living god. He was stopped by none other than his ever exhilarated co-worker Kim Junsu.
The latter had a big pout spread across his face, arms crossed at his chest.
"Where have you been, mister? I've been looking for you. No phone calls and no messages and now you show up dressing up like this? What has gotten into you?"
Jaejoong just looked around, noticing that Yunho was nowhere in sight. "Where's Yunho?"
"Why are you looking for him? You haven't answered my questions yet."
"Where. Is. Yunho?" he asked once more but in a rough, grim tone that caused Junsu to immediately change the look of his face.
"Jae?" he asked softly.
"I'll tell you about it later. Now where is Yunho?"
"I-I'm not quite sure exactly where but the last time I saw him, he went to Heechul's office and it seems like he hasn't come back out yet."
A foreboding feeling erupted inside of Jaejoong, having the feelings of a déjà vu.
"Get everyone gathered up in one corner this instant. They cannot do or say anything while I'm here."
Junsu nodded and yelled at everyone to huddle around and stand at the corner but not before he whispered "Be careful" at Jaejoong. Then he took off to stand where he was told.
Jaejoong gave a small smile to Junsu before he disappeared, marching toward the door with the plague that read "Executive Chief" on it. He heard moans softly and the sounds of a desk screeching as if it were being moved, or pushed.
"Ahhh... You're still tight... Uhhh.... After all this... God..." When he heard that voice, the blood inside of him boiled to a high point and his hands balled up into fists.
'How dare he do it here in broad daylight...'
With one hard and strong kick, he slammed the door open and walked into a similar scene he had seen that certain night. A tanned body with his chest exposed and pants hanging down around his ankle, bending down on the desk with his upper body lying down while another body was hovering over it with the same manner, humping the bottom body against the desk. Both faces stared in shock and surprise when they realized that the door was open wide, exposing both of them.
However, one face was amazed at the person that he was staring at. Beautiful and fashionable, he was like a living proof of perfection and an angel, wondering who exactly that person may be. Realizing what situation he was in, he shoved the man above him away and hurriedly pulled up his pants, tripping, but he managed to cover his lower region. He looked straight down to the floor, eyes staring at it for he was in total shame to the shining figure standing proudly at the door. Yunho thought that, being in his current situation, he looked like a pathetic, weak dog to the man who was still standing in the door frame.
The beautiful man pulled his sunglasses down, revealing his face to Yunho, who looked up only to widen his eyes in horror at the sight of a totally new Jaejoong. He quickly looked back down again, full of distraught and disgrace. Jaejoong lingered, looking at the sight of the man sitting on the ground, before moving to look at the person he degraded the most. Still not having pulled his pants up, the boss makes a pose as if he was almighty-like and his face has the most arrogant look.
"Jaejoong, in what manner did you not learn that you're supposed to knock before entering or better yet, kicking the door?" he asked rudely.
Jaejoong smirked, "I knock the doors only if the person deserves to be respected. I kick the doors in disgust at people who don't have respect in themselves and others alike. And, might I add, in broad daylight, fucking one of his subordinates."
"Hah! As if I care for someone as little as you to give me respect. Let's make one thing clear. I'm the boss of this place and what I want, I get. I got him this job," he said, pointing at Yunho, "and I have the right ordering him and doing whatever I want whether it's for him to get me coffee or be my fucking toy."
Heechul smirked and walked up close to Jaejoong and whispered in his ears.
"And he was mine in the beginning. You're just jealous at the fact that I got to him first before you and fucked his tight as before you even had the chance to get your hands on it. And you know what? He screamed and moaned and begged to have more and more until I pound his ass sore, saying he still wants more of me cumming in his tight ass hole."
Jaejoong didn't say anything but just stared at Yunho looking at the ground, crouching in shame and guilt.
He parted away a little bit from the androgynous man, smiling at him before ramming a fist to the jaw and jabbed it up. Heechul stepped back from the sudden blow, yelling in pain, while Yunho looked at the scene, terrified at the sight of Jaejoong punching their boss.
"That was for being a disgusting human."
He gave a slap on the man's left cheek.
"That was for being a bitch."
He gave another slap on the right.
"That was for everyone who you treated like trash."
"Why you little... Fairy Bitch." Heechul growled, aiming a fist at Jaejoong but before he could manage to get a punch in there, he felt a strong jab hit his stomach, rendering him completely speechless. Two strong hands held onto him and a warm breath crawled into his ear, whispering to him quietly.
"And that was for calling me Fairy Boy all the time. One lesson to be taught about life, Kim Heechul, is that everything has its own consequences. You treat people below you like they're a bunch of idiots, not respecting them and even going as far as to make them your own person fucking toy for you pleasure. Well, karma will come back to you, bitch, and you'll have a lot to pay."
With that said, he let go of Heechul but he gave one final blow down to the groin area with his knee, hitting the feminine man's erection, causing massive tremors of pain surging around it.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!" He fell right onto the floor, both hands clutching his poor family jewel, rolling and screaming in agony.
"That was for him. He has to suffer under you all this time. He was doing this for a good intention and you took advantages of him."
"I'll have the security get you for this. You can forget about having another job in your life or finding someone to publish that fucking piece of crap." Heechul struggled to say the two sentences.
Jaejoong smiled and pulled out an envelope, flinging it towards Heechul's face and watched in humor as it hit its aim.
"I don't need this hellhole be my source of income. Just you watch. The day I publish that 'piece of crap' is the day when you will pay back for all the nasty deeds you have done."
He walked up the crouching man, leaving the man moaning in misery to his own anguish, boring his eyes into the burden guilty man.
"I'll give you two choices."
Yunho looked at him in fear and wonder.
"Either leaves this place and come with me, or stays here and keeps being his fucking toy. Keep being his fucking toy from now on and consider that we are finally over. FOREVER."
Jaejoong put on his sunglasses and left the room.
Yunho stared at the entrance and back to the miserable Heechul in front of him. If he stays, he would still have the job and Heechul will keep fucking him, giving him money, but he will lose his chance forever with Jaejoong. But, if he leaves, he has his chance for love again but ends up losing the job. What was more important: the job or finding his true love?
"Yunho! What the hell are you sitting there for!? Call security and help me!" Heechul hollered.
Yunho kept staring at him and now he finally had his answer. Sex and a place to work may have come in handy to him before and he thought he could benefit from both. But true love is only found once in a lifetime and when you lose it, you can't get it back easily. Sex can be given up and jobs can be found again but if he lets this chance pass by, there's no more life in him to live on.
He hastily buttoned up his shirt and marched out of the room with confidence in his decision.
"Yunho! Where the heck are you going? Come back here or you can forget about keeping this job!"
He turns back and replied, "Go and find yourself another bitch. This body will only and forever be owned by the very man who just sucker punched you." And he ran out.
He turned to see the ever-smiling Junsu looking at him and pointed in the direction that will lead him to his love again.
"Go." he whispered. Yunho returned back a smile and took off.
He looked at the elevator level going down and couldn't wait for it to go back up. Jaejoong will leave him for sure. He took the stairway and ran down in a rush. With each passing step, he worried if he could make it in time but he wouldn't dare think about it. He kept focusing on reaching the bottom step, getting to the first level. He ran straight down to the underground parking lot, rushing all the way down, looking left and right for the beautiful man of his life. He heard the sound of a car screeching, driving away behind him. He turned around and ran to the sound. The more he ran, the sound of the car of getting fainter.
"Jaejoong!"
He yelled out and ran at the same time, hoping that the man can hear him. He saw the back of the car in front of him and sped up but the car was even faster and it had sped out to the entrance, driving away from his sight.
"Jaejoong-ah!!" he called one more time, tripping over himself, bruising his knees and palms. His legs were numb, pain hanging around his ankles. A rip in his pants was visible, showing his scraped right knee.
He felt both hurt outside and inside. Not only were his legs injured; his heart was bleeding. Bleeding because of the fact that he was too late and Jaejoong had abandoned him, removing his presence from Yunho's life, possibly forever.
"Jaejoong... Jaejoong... Jae..." he murmured quietly to himself over and over again while punching the concrete ground with his fist repeatedly.
The more he chanted, the more his heart hurt. The more it hurt, the more he banged his fist on the ground. The more he banged the ground, the more his fist bled, and the more it bled, the more his tears poured out from his swollen eyes.
"AHHH!! WHY!?" he screamed loudly, raising his fist for one last slam. He didn't care how much it hurt and started to numb his knuckles, he just wanted to do it for the heck of his stupidity.
The heartbroken man was about to slam it down again when suddenly, a hand stopped him. He looked up and could not believe his eyes, thinking his brain was playing tricks on him. The beautiful angel was right in front of him; his eyes showed a vast amount of worry and concern.
"Are you crazy, banging your first like that? Look, it's bleeding a lot!" Jaejoong scolded him in an angry yet gentle and worried tone, bending down to inspect the wounded hand.
Jaejoong pulled out a handkerchief and carefully wrapped the bruised knuckles to hold down the blood flow. Yunho didn't care about the pain but just focused on staring at the person in front of him without blinking.
"We need to take you to the hospital. What did you have to do that for? You could've just called me and--" He was silenced by a deadly hug from Yunho.
Jaejoong stayed silent, not saying anything but just returned the hug back. Yunho buried his head inside Jaejoong's shoulder, eyes watery and body slightly shaking. Jaejoong felt wetness on his shirt and shoulder. He tightened his hug and whispered gently into the other man's ear.
"Don't cry. It hurts me if you're crying. I'm here, aren't I?"
"I thought you left me. I thought you didn't want me anymore and left me here all by myself.” Yunho replied in a small and raspy voice, murmuring into the shoulder but loud enough for Jaejoong to hear.
"I won't leave you by yourself and I will always want you if you want me as well."
Yunho nodded fast, saying, "I want you. I want you. I will forever want you..."
Jaejoong smiled and said, "Then there's no way I would leave you if you chose to be with me. Come on, let's go."
With one scoop, Jaejoong picked up Yunho in a flash, carrying him bridal style and walked to the car. Yunho blushed at the action because he never was carried like that ever and even more amazed at Jaejoong's strength.
"I-I can walk, you know." he said timidly.
"And let you hurt your knee? I don't think you want to have a scar or permanent damage to it. Besides, you're not that heavy to carry."
Yunho blushed to a darker shade and nuzzled his lover's neck lovingly. Jaejoong smiled and quickly walked up to his car, gently putting Yunho down to get his keys and opens the door. He helps the injured man settled inside the car and walked to the other side and sat himself down at the driver seat.
"We're going to go to the hospital first to get you treated and then we'll go shopping for some stuff for when you move in with me."
"M-Move in with you?"
"Of course! Now that you chose to be with me, you have to move in so I can take care of you. Besides, I'm not letting you stay all by yourself. Who knows if he's going to come by and decide to rape you?"
Yunho looked down in sadness because he knows what Jaejoong was talking about. Heechul could find where he lives and take revenge on him by betraying him now. Yet, part of him is telling him another reason Jaejoong is making him move in: so he could keep Yunho in check in case he looks for Heechul and decides to backstab Jaejoong. That reason itself caused Yunho to be in more pain since he figured Jaejoong did not trust him.
"If you're thinking that I don't trust you because you might find Heechul again then yes, that was part of the reason why I want you to move in as well."
Yunho looked up and then back down as if Jaejoong had read his mind and confirmed the suspicion for him.
"But it's not because I can't trust you, but it's not having trust in myself." Jaejoong put his head down and Yunho's head shot up in surprise.
"I can't trust myself to be confident that you won't betray me. I want to have you by my side so I know that you won't leave me and later on, I can trust myself not to go berserk or paranoid on you. I don't want to be that type of person who can't trust his boyfriend to be by himself or start worrying if he's cheating on me or not."
Jaejoong looked at Yunho with deep, loving eyes and reached his hand out to Yunho's, caressing the wound and wrapped his fingers with the bandaged hand.
"It's not that I don't trust you because the moment I saw you run out to the parking lot, I knew you would keep your word and stay true to me." He brought his other hand up to caress the left cheek of Yunho.
"I just don't want to hurt you later and regret it for the rest of our lives. I want to have out happiness kept going on until we grow old."
Yunho shed a tear and rubbed his cheek against Jaejoong's hand.
"I'm sorry, Jaejoong. I didn't want to cause you so much pain. I didn't mean to. I--"
Jaejoong placed a finger over Yunho's lips and smiled. "You don't have to explain. You told me already and... I respect the choice you made for your family. I can understand and forgive your intentions but you shouldn't degrade yourself down to that level."
"I know but at first, I thought I would just have a job and have sex like any normal person. I didn't think of the fact that I would fall in love with someone as beautiful as you. I don't want to let you go for my mistake. I thought I could keep you both and my job but when you found out, it made me realize how much I needed you more than this job... I love you, Jaejoong."
Jaejoong smiled. "I know and I love you too, Yunho. I hope you understand that it'll be hard to forget this easily, but I won't let you go."
Yunho smiled sincerely back but changed to a frown when he remembered something.
"Aren't you going to worry about Heechul and if he'll find you for revenge?"
"He can't do anything to the son of the Kim Co. unless he wants to get into a headlock with my dad." he said, smirking.
"You're the son of the country's top company owner!? But why did you..."
"I didn't want to succeed in the company since my passion was writing, hence why I even got this job. Even though we have the worst chief editor in history, it pays to get insights of how to make a bestseller story. My dad understands that and let me be on my own to follow my dreams but he does hope one day that I come back. I know I can't escape this fate so the whole week while I was away was to talk to my dad and he agreed that I'll take over only if I can continue my writing career. I need to be a filial son, too... like you."
Jaejoong grinned and Yunho hid his face in the lovely palm of the other man in embarrassment.
"Now that everything has settled and you have made up your mind, how about you accept my invitation and move in?"
Yunho didn't say anything but just kept his face down and nodded in response. Jaejoong giggled at the cute action and drove off.
And you got me just torn between the two. (I'm torn between the two)
Cuz I really wanna be with you. (I really wanna be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (But I don't know)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
'I was torn because I want to be with you and yet I want to leave you. But I can't leave without leaving the heart I gave you and the love I have for you. So I gave you one last chance to end this in your way. Be with me and I'll stay, leave me, then I'll leave you. But I'm glad you have chosen me... so I don't have to leave you alone.'
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Note: (**) means that it was taken from the actual story
So how was it? I know the song meaning wasn't like this but it went so perfect with this fic plus i feel yunho cannot be too easily forgiven if you all read the story so i asked permission from burmeese can i do a remake and BANG! The ending was my idea but the overall plot belong to her so thank so much blurmeese for letting me rewrite this!!!! :DDDDDDD
Hope you all like it and comment so i know i still have readers left!!!!