I have no idea what I'm doing anymore
I think it’s only when you need friends you understand how little you have. I’ve had a lot of people saying that they don’t care when they lose a friend because they really weren’t there to start with but sadly I don’t think like that. I understand that I have done things wrong but that’s me, being too honest and trying to send hints. I want them back, I want all of them back and I need them but it’s not going to happen. Sadly I need friends who will always be there for me, even if they can’t understand what’s wrong, the people I have lost on average make me more upset then happy and yet I want them back. I guess that feeling alone is making me type this; it seems that no matter how many friends you have you always want more or better ones. It’s so hard telling people things now, I’ve hurt people without meaning to and I’m sorry for that but how can I be sorry for who I am?