the day of firsts
first real snow came yesterday through today. it's pretty much been snowing (with some rain/sleet) for 24 hours, although not a whole lot of accumulation. it's definitely nice to see snow finally, but oddly not as exciting as i thought it would be. usually the first snow like this makes me very happy. perhaps waiting so long has made it less enjoyable. perhaps i'm just a grouch right about now. who knows.
it was also the first day back at work. i had been highly anxious about this all. i suppose some of it was undue, but not entirely. it sucks having to be 100% billable. especially in situations like this. ah, the perils of consulting. at any rate, it was mostly a positive reception. there was a part of me very excited to come back, a part that thinks maybe i could find something i can connect with, something where i can affect a change and do something positive. but then again, there is the other part of me that is still frustrated by lack of forward motion, by lack of responsibility, by lack of focusing talents and gifts in an effective way. i don't want to sit here behind a computer screen wasting my talent, my desire, my energy.
once again, is it soul murder, or am i just being dramatic?
it's probably best not to answer that one.
in not firsts news, ted leo and the rx was this weekend. as usual, it was great. i was a bit concerned because in the beginning the songs didn't seem tight (maybe due to the new bassist?) but definitely got better as the show went on. however, the audience sucked from start to finish. most of the kids didn't dance, most of the kids didn't sing along, most of the kids were just annoying. i'm always surprised at how the audience can change the atmosphere of a show. there was a mildly cool thing that happened though. this girl next to me brought her little sister to the show for her b-day. she kept trying to get ted's attention, but was waaay to quiet about things. so myself and another girl got it for her. he totally did a shout out to the b-day girl, who btw turned 14. she was so timid and awkward (braces and all), it was humorous and adorable. i can only imagine what i would have been like going to less than jake or propagandhi or something and having them dedicate a song to me for my b-day. i probably would have peed my pants. anyway the people in front of us were motioning for her to move to the front for it, and she was so scared to go. i had to laugh a little. but yeah, clearly ted leo is an awesome guy and every time i see him, my crush gets bigger and bigger. and i miss buzz all that much more.
after the show, we stopped at parish cafe to work on our beer cards. i'm totally behind t-bex and jb because i drink so much slower than them, but whatever. 4 down and, um, what, 66 to go? i'll drink to that.
it was also the first day back at work. i had been highly anxious about this all. i suppose some of it was undue, but not entirely. it sucks having to be 100% billable. especially in situations like this. ah, the perils of consulting. at any rate, it was mostly a positive reception. there was a part of me very excited to come back, a part that thinks maybe i could find something i can connect with, something where i can affect a change and do something positive. but then again, there is the other part of me that is still frustrated by lack of forward motion, by lack of responsibility, by lack of focusing talents and gifts in an effective way. i don't want to sit here behind a computer screen wasting my talent, my desire, my energy.
once again, is it soul murder, or am i just being dramatic?
it's probably best not to answer that one.
in not firsts news, ted leo and the rx was this weekend. as usual, it was great. i was a bit concerned because in the beginning the songs didn't seem tight (maybe due to the new bassist?) but definitely got better as the show went on. however, the audience sucked from start to finish. most of the kids didn't dance, most of the kids didn't sing along, most of the kids were just annoying. i'm always surprised at how the audience can change the atmosphere of a show. there was a mildly cool thing that happened though. this girl next to me brought her little sister to the show for her b-day. she kept trying to get ted's attention, but was waaay to quiet about things. so myself and another girl got it for her. he totally did a shout out to the b-day girl, who btw turned 14. she was so timid and awkward (braces and all), it was humorous and adorable. i can only imagine what i would have been like going to less than jake or propagandhi or something and having them dedicate a song to me for my b-day. i probably would have peed my pants. anyway the people in front of us were motioning for her to move to the front for it, and she was so scared to go. i had to laugh a little. but yeah, clearly ted leo is an awesome guy and every time i see him, my crush gets bigger and bigger. and i miss buzz all that much more.
after the show, we stopped at parish cafe to work on our beer cards. i'm totally behind t-bex and jb because i drink so much slower than them, but whatever. 4 down and, um, what, 66 to go? i'll drink to that.