The disappointment that I feel for my friends is greater than i ever thought possible. I knew that Marjie was going to drink and fool around with guys, because she proved that in high school. Any and every time that she got attention from guys, she suddenly acted like a complete prostitute and became so dirty in her flirting. However, I did not ( Read more... )

Every once in a while i have to vent and have nowhere else to go but here. My roomie and i don't always get along, which is the norm. for all relationships where two people spend day in and day out together. But here recently, ever since "the fight" it's seemed to be worse. The fight that i am refering to was where she told me that she hasn't been ( Read more... )

My dating woes are over from the last post. I haven't seen Wheeler like I thought i would, and when i do see him there is no longer the attraction like there used to be. However, on Sunday i went on a date with this guy Lorin, and us having the same name still creeps me out, but not as much as he does. We saw 40 year old virgin, and well, it wasn't ( Read more... )

So, I've seen him three times this week alone- aka everyday we've had school. Have I said anything any of these three times? No. i haven't smiled, looked his direction or even tried. every time i see him a make an effort to look the other way and hope that he doesn't notice me either. I want more than that, but after what I've done, it seems highly ( Read more... )

I have fifty million thoughts running through my mind, however; they are going so fast, I can't think about just one. So every few seconds, i have a new and different thought in my mind and it creates a new ordeal to work through. There was a law passes in kazakhstan that says that churches have to have a permit to have a church and can no longer ( Read more... )

Wow it's been a while since i have written on this. I just got back from kazakstan ad wich i was back there. I was there from June 30 to July 11. I miss thekids so much! There was one girl that I bonded wtih the most- aiman. She called me her hampster bcause of my cheeks. She said that when i smiled, my cheeks looked like a hampster's. She taught ( Read more... )

Marjie and i ate dinner at Applebee's tonight. I met her at work and the two of us had an amzaing break through about some things that if they happen will be awesome, but if they don't happen life will still be grand. I'm getting ready for Summer Experiance at HU this week. i don't know what to expect or what to think yet, but i'm sure it will be ( Read more... )

Immarturity (which I'm sure is spelled wrong) really annoys me. I say one little thing on my xanga, and the girl I said it about gets mad at me instead of the girl who actually said it. She of course didn't call to hear it from me or anything, but instead commented about it on my xanga. How many months until i'm in college and away from all this ( Read more... )

Tomorrow's going to suck. i will officailly broken up wtih "him". I don't quite know how to do it, but I will have to do it sooner than later and I do mean the sooner of the two. I feel bad, but then i don't want him to think that I still like him. that's not fair to him. Anyways, tomorrow I will be free and ready for a summer fling or nothing ( Read more... )

I just got back from my mission trip meeting and all i can think is that we are no where near ready to leave. My group still doesn't get along. Not like we have to, but it would be nice. I'm one of three that have gone before in this group, and yet the others won't even listen to a word we say. I guess I'm mainly frustrated with them. My mom's in ( Read more... )