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my favorite uncle and aunt are getting a divorce. i feel like i've been hit by a brick. only i didn't see the brick coming...it was as if i was walking around, with my head down, looking at my feet, sulking about my birthday and then all of the sudden i heard a noise, looked up and got hit square in the face with a very heavy, ugly brick...as of right now though, i am not thinking about it. it just hurts too much.
how do people fall out of love? i guess i was in love with alex...but i always knew deep down that it wouldn't work out. i knew he wasen't the one for me and mostly it was the people closest to me that made me realize that. i am better off without him, i am so happy with nick. but if i had 2 kids not even in 1st grade yet, i would have stuck it out for my family. or at least i hope i would have. i want to marry nick and i am sure of that at this point in my life...but i do understand that things change, but i can't imagine falling out of love. i just don't understand.
tomorrow is the 4th of july....and the next day is my birthday! so here's the plan for my sweet 17th birthday....
wake up and be at aunt nancy's around 9:30am and then erika and i will watch nick while ben goes to the dentist...then we're going to great lakes crossing and eating lunch at rainforest cafe and then going to jeepers! yea! then we're coming back and my parents are coming over for dinner and we're having little caesers pizza and brownies and everyone gets to sing to me! then i have nothing to do after that. i would like to do something uber fun...like mini golf and coldstone or shopping!! humm...either way i mean it will kinda hard for me to be in a sad mood with erika, aunt nancy and ben and nick around! i just wish that nick wasen't in chicago...the lucky kid went to aurora today! i am completly jealous!!! wayne's world!!!
sigh....anyways i'm in birthday mode because all i want is presents, money, cake, ice cream and chocolate. but yea...tonight we're going to papa and lala's house...wake me up later!
how do people fall out of love? i guess i was in love with alex...but i always knew deep down that it wouldn't work out. i knew he wasen't the one for me and mostly it was the people closest to me that made me realize that. i am better off without him, i am so happy with nick. but if i had 2 kids not even in 1st grade yet, i would have stuck it out for my family. or at least i hope i would have. i want to marry nick and i am sure of that at this point in my life...but i do understand that things change, but i can't imagine falling out of love. i just don't understand.
tomorrow is the 4th of july....and the next day is my birthday! so here's the plan for my sweet 17th birthday....
wake up and be at aunt nancy's around 9:30am and then erika and i will watch nick while ben goes to the dentist...then we're going to great lakes crossing and eating lunch at rainforest cafe and then going to jeepers! yea! then we're coming back and my parents are coming over for dinner and we're having little caesers pizza and brownies and everyone gets to sing to me! then i have nothing to do after that. i would like to do something uber fun...like mini golf and coldstone or shopping!! humm...either way i mean it will kinda hard for me to be in a sad mood with erika, aunt nancy and ben and nick around! i just wish that nick wasen't in chicago...the lucky kid went to aurora today! i am completly jealous!!! wayne's world!!!
sigh....anyways i'm in birthday mode because all i want is presents, money, cake, ice cream and chocolate. but yea...tonight we're going to papa and lala's house...wake me up later!