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So this is me thinking
The Revised Edition
I wish I wasn’t so afraid of things
I’m always promising the next time will be different
But it never will be
When I smile I mean it
When I laugh I love it
I don’t know why I don’t do those things more often,
If they make me so happy
I’ve got all I need
A good head on my shoulders
Best friends
And a family beyond belief
There are times I’d rather sit alone
No one’s better company
Is it bad to want to change yourself?
I only want to be a better person.
Is it wrong to diagnose yourself?
I only want to improve my insecurities.
There are things I know I’ll never have
It doesn’t stop me from wanting them
There are things I know I’ll never try
And I won’t because I don’t want to
It’s amazing how my standards have changed
So you want to be a teacher, huh?
Yes, well…….
Maybe…………..
No, Not forever………
You can’t help but think
What’s the point?
You end up getting older
Work ends
You’re left at home
What does the end of the Tao look like?
Did you take the right steps?
Who’s left with you now….
I don’t want to see my mistakes laid out before me
A century of stumbles
Little things taken for granted
A century of changes
Sitting here now
It doesn’t look like it could end up alright at all
How can it?
When I don’t know the steps to take
The things to say
Or the emotions to admit to
It’s stupid stuff
But I’ll be sad when it’s finally over
So Ryan thinks I hate him. And I’ll admit, right now I can’t really stand him. It’s like a stupid, silent war… one that I don’t see the sense in fighting. You wonder why I think you’re a pain in the ass? You’re home at the most random times, and the only things that you ever address to me are unneeded criticisms…. I’m ALWAYS doing something wrong, saying stupid things, or stepping on YOUR toes. That didn’t keep me from feeling guilty when Shelby told me he thinks I hate him… I don’t know how he came to that conclusion really… I’m not outwardly mean… I haven’t even voiced my annoyance with any living or nonliving thing…. I suppose that means I’ve just been outwardly cold… which makes sense… I’ve felt no need to make conversation or to say hello if it’s going to end with me becoming irritated… I suppose if he’s going to steal my sister away I’d better make amends.
Today hasn't been bad... then why the hell am I so FRUSTRATED?!
The Revised Edition
I wish I wasn’t so afraid of things
I’m always promising the next time will be different
But it never will be
When I smile I mean it
When I laugh I love it
I don’t know why I don’t do those things more often,
If they make me so happy
I’ve got all I need
A good head on my shoulders
Best friends
And a family beyond belief
There are times I’d rather sit alone
No one’s better company
Is it bad to want to change yourself?
I only want to be a better person.
Is it wrong to diagnose yourself?
I only want to improve my insecurities.
There are things I know I’ll never have
It doesn’t stop me from wanting them
There are things I know I’ll never try
And I won’t because I don’t want to
It’s amazing how my standards have changed
So you want to be a teacher, huh?
Yes, well…….
Maybe…………..
No, Not forever………
You can’t help but think
What’s the point?
You end up getting older
Work ends
You’re left at home
What does the end of the Tao look like?
Did you take the right steps?
Who’s left with you now….
I don’t want to see my mistakes laid out before me
A century of stumbles
Little things taken for granted
A century of changes
Sitting here now
It doesn’t look like it could end up alright at all
How can it?
When I don’t know the steps to take
The things to say
Or the emotions to admit to
It’s stupid stuff
But I’ll be sad when it’s finally over
So Ryan thinks I hate him. And I’ll admit, right now I can’t really stand him. It’s like a stupid, silent war… one that I don’t see the sense in fighting. You wonder why I think you’re a pain in the ass? You’re home at the most random times, and the only things that you ever address to me are unneeded criticisms…. I’m ALWAYS doing something wrong, saying stupid things, or stepping on YOUR toes. That didn’t keep me from feeling guilty when Shelby told me he thinks I hate him… I don’t know how he came to that conclusion really… I’m not outwardly mean… I haven’t even voiced my annoyance with any living or nonliving thing…. I suppose that means I’ve just been outwardly cold… which makes sense… I’ve felt no need to make conversation or to say hello if it’s going to end with me becoming irritated… I suppose if he’s going to steal my sister away I’d better make amends.
Today hasn't been bad... then why the hell am I so FRUSTRATED?!