you know who you are
to my long lost friend (and love),
you are going to be okay. one day things will start to feel better, a day when you can remember without wanting to cry/throwup/die. the thing we have to remember is that the days go on with each new sunrise. life actually isn't standing still, it's the illusion caused by heartache. the most important words of wisdom from my almost 29 years of life that i have gleaned is that the only one you can change is yourself. you can't change what the other person is thinking, what she does, or make her say what you want her to say. the only thing you can do with any of that is prepare yourself to not be caught off balance through this--it's about gaining perspective. you can choose to look at this as a life-ending thing or as a new beginning. you can choose how you gain knowledge from this experience. you can decide what you want for yourself in the future. you are able to control what you can control, and that's your actions and working to improve your insight. if it happened, and it sounds like it did, you should take away from this who you are in a relationship and how you can improve yourself as a person, a friend, and eventually a significant other.
it sounds silly for me to write this about you, as you are one of the few people that i've allowed to scar me to such a deep extent. but, with time and introspection, i am the wiser for it.
maybe this helps, maybe this is something you know and don't want to hear from me, but nonetheless, this is what i have learned.
one thing that you can count on is that the sun will set and rise. with the sunrise, you can decide how you want to face the day. take it day by day.
i love you and always have.
you are going to be okay. one day things will start to feel better, a day when you can remember without wanting to cry/throwup/die. the thing we have to remember is that the days go on with each new sunrise. life actually isn't standing still, it's the illusion caused by heartache. the most important words of wisdom from my almost 29 years of life that i have gleaned is that the only one you can change is yourself. you can't change what the other person is thinking, what she does, or make her say what you want her to say. the only thing you can do with any of that is prepare yourself to not be caught off balance through this--it's about gaining perspective. you can choose to look at this as a life-ending thing or as a new beginning. you can choose how you gain knowledge from this experience. you can decide what you want for yourself in the future. you are able to control what you can control, and that's your actions and working to improve your insight. if it happened, and it sounds like it did, you should take away from this who you are in a relationship and how you can improve yourself as a person, a friend, and eventually a significant other.
it sounds silly for me to write this about you, as you are one of the few people that i've allowed to scar me to such a deep extent. but, with time and introspection, i am the wiser for it.
maybe this helps, maybe this is something you know and don't want to hear from me, but nonetheless, this is what i have learned.
one thing that you can count on is that the sun will set and rise. with the sunrise, you can decide how you want to face the day. take it day by day.
i love you and always have.