I'm the selfish little whore If I had my way I'd crush your face in the door
Well I've skipped class again. Its hard to go to all 3 of my classes on Mondays. I have long breaks in between all of them, and I just don't want to be on campus for that long doing nothing. And with every road in kzoo being tore up, its impossible to get anywhere in decent time. I do have to meet with my drug class teacher about my failed mid-term, and his office is right next to the State Psychiatric hospital...should be fun. I really hope I didn't legitimatly fail it, I'm hoping I marked the wrong test or mixed up the numbers, because for the first time in my life I studied my ass off for that test, so it wouldn't result in a 56 out of 100.
I really love Frou Frou. I forgot how amazing the music is. Its weird how things change and so fast. How I picked one person to be allowed into my life, even though he was the last person in the world I wanted close to me. But it seemed worth it, only for it to end with him pushing me out of his. No more going home and counting on him to entertain me. I've gone home the past two weekends. I didn't really want to do that, just because I don't at all want to get into the habit of liking to go home. But kzoo always makes me love it when I come back. The weekend before it was just me and my mom and that was heavenly. We went shopping lots, and spent a ton of time together. Birr had people over and that was way fun. I enjoy his company and his new lady friends. I was in a crap mood though last week. Sometimes I just hate life, for no reason. and then usually I blame it on a bun in the oven or some dumb reason. But I cried it out and I feel fine. Thank God for that. Then this past weekend was my moms birthday and I wanted to make it extremly special for her because she deserves it. So I got her a sweatshirt, CD, balloons and 2 dozen roses. She was way surprised and loved all of it. She cried at my card and the guys (which I picked out too) so that was a success. It makes you feel the best when you've given the cry card and since I picked out all 3...I won at life. We went out to eat and she got new shoes. I really think she had a good day and it made me feel good that I could give that to her.
Hung out w/ Birr a ton over the weekend. Friday night it was Birr, Hill and Bianca and I. We went to the Vous and smoked. I didnt pay for my crinky fries. They were $2 for only about 4 fries..so I peaced out on that. Then Saturday I ran errands for the big day. And then hung out w/ Birr and those girls. Jamie and I almost hit 2 deer on the way back to Kzoo last night. It really throws you for a loop. I just appreciated my life about 8 times more after almost losing it. My car reeked of burnt rubber for just about the rest of the way home. Went line dancing last week w/ people from work here in Kzoo. It was alright, you either have to have some kind of male buddy or boyfriend or you have to be real drunk to really enjoy that kind of thing. And I was neither, so it was a decent time. I'm getting that 21 yr old itch. Like the one you get when you're 15 and all you can think about is how much better your life will be when youre 16 and have your license. I think my life will be slightly improved when I'm 21. I had 2 nights in a row, when I was very much of aware of my baby age. And if only I was 21, I could've had a way better time.
eh I don't think I'm going to meet w/ my teacher. I'll save it for Wednesday when I might have more motivation. And I prob. won't go to my night class tonight. Sprint sucks just for the record. I was on the phone w/ them, well I mean on hold, for just about an hour off and on on Saturday. There are people in America, who don't have jobs... put them in an office and have them answer phones. I get so pissed off when I get an automated voice system. Well I think I'm gonna watch some tv or lay down.
Who's coming to Kzoo this weekend??? I want everyone in the world to come.
I really love Frou Frou. I forgot how amazing the music is. Its weird how things change and so fast. How I picked one person to be allowed into my life, even though he was the last person in the world I wanted close to me. But it seemed worth it, only for it to end with him pushing me out of his. No more going home and counting on him to entertain me. I've gone home the past two weekends. I didn't really want to do that, just because I don't at all want to get into the habit of liking to go home. But kzoo always makes me love it when I come back. The weekend before it was just me and my mom and that was heavenly. We went shopping lots, and spent a ton of time together. Birr had people over and that was way fun. I enjoy his company and his new lady friends. I was in a crap mood though last week. Sometimes I just hate life, for no reason. and then usually I blame it on a bun in the oven or some dumb reason. But I cried it out and I feel fine. Thank God for that. Then this past weekend was my moms birthday and I wanted to make it extremly special for her because she deserves it. So I got her a sweatshirt, CD, balloons and 2 dozen roses. She was way surprised and loved all of it. She cried at my card and the guys (which I picked out too) so that was a success. It makes you feel the best when you've given the cry card and since I picked out all 3...I won at life. We went out to eat and she got new shoes. I really think she had a good day and it made me feel good that I could give that to her.
Hung out w/ Birr a ton over the weekend. Friday night it was Birr, Hill and Bianca and I. We went to the Vous and smoked. I didnt pay for my crinky fries. They were $2 for only about 4 fries..so I peaced out on that. Then Saturday I ran errands for the big day. And then hung out w/ Birr and those girls. Jamie and I almost hit 2 deer on the way back to Kzoo last night. It really throws you for a loop. I just appreciated my life about 8 times more after almost losing it. My car reeked of burnt rubber for just about the rest of the way home. Went line dancing last week w/ people from work here in Kzoo. It was alright, you either have to have some kind of male buddy or boyfriend or you have to be real drunk to really enjoy that kind of thing. And I was neither, so it was a decent time. I'm getting that 21 yr old itch. Like the one you get when you're 15 and all you can think about is how much better your life will be when youre 16 and have your license. I think my life will be slightly improved when I'm 21. I had 2 nights in a row, when I was very much of aware of my baby age. And if only I was 21, I could've had a way better time.
eh I don't think I'm going to meet w/ my teacher. I'll save it for Wednesday when I might have more motivation. And I prob. won't go to my night class tonight. Sprint sucks just for the record. I was on the phone w/ them, well I mean on hold, for just about an hour off and on on Saturday. There are people in America, who don't have jobs... put them in an office and have them answer phones. I get so pissed off when I get an automated voice system. Well I think I'm gonna watch some tv or lay down.
Who's coming to Kzoo this weekend??? I want everyone in the world to come.