But I can only give you love
Erika tried on her dress on Monday night and oh my goodness! It was just like, wow, this is it. That is THE DRESS she will be walking down the aisle in to get married. I think it threw me for a loop. My best friend is getting married. Oh.
There has been lots of stress going on right now for me. I'm dealing with it and working through it. Unfortunatly, how I deal is to go solo for a while. Not hang out with friends, not really talk to family, just focus on myself and the situations I am dealing with. My mom got really upset at me last night about it and part of me wants to feel bad, but the other part wants to tell her to shove it. This is how I have always dealt with things, what is so damn different about it this time? Man, I think she will kick me out of the family for where my mind is heading and plans I am looking into.
But then talked to Julie for a while after talking to Marshall. That helped because Julie can always make me laugh and I always talk to Marshall about stuff in his life, never really pull him into what is happening in mine. So it gives me a chance to be the helpful listener I am and not feel bad for not expecting the same from him.
Started up a new training schedule last night, here's hoping my body carries me through another half marathon sometime this spring/summer.
But all the above being said, I am supposed to go to Bible Study tonight, I might skip though. I'm just not feeling it. And the Grammy's are on. ;)
There has been lots of stress going on right now for me. I'm dealing with it and working through it. Unfortunatly, how I deal is to go solo for a while. Not hang out with friends, not really talk to family, just focus on myself and the situations I am dealing with. My mom got really upset at me last night about it and part of me wants to feel bad, but the other part wants to tell her to shove it. This is how I have always dealt with things, what is so damn different about it this time? Man, I think she will kick me out of the family for where my mind is heading and plans I am looking into.
But then talked to Julie for a while after talking to Marshall. That helped because Julie can always make me laugh and I always talk to Marshall about stuff in his life, never really pull him into what is happening in mine. So it gives me a chance to be the helpful listener I am and not feel bad for not expecting the same from him.
Started up a new training schedule last night, here's hoping my body carries me through another half marathon sometime this spring/summer.
But all the above being said, I am supposed to go to Bible Study tonight, I might skip though. I'm just not feeling it. And the Grammy's are on. ;)