not meant to be taken personally.
I wrote Chris a note today hoping he'd come back to school and see me. But he didn't so I read it to me on the phone. . . here it is and I'm not sugar-coating any of it, no bullshit. This is straight up and if you don't like it I'm sorry, but it's the truth. I've tried to tell it to you before but there wasn't any listening coming from your part. I hope this time you'll understand, if you knwo who you are. I'm not singling you out or anything but it was bothering me and...here it goes.
"Chris,
uhg, hey. I am so stressed out I could cry. i need to see you so bad. I feel like I can't be trusted. . . and that I waste peoples time. I try really hard to be a good friend and I try and show (prove) I can be trusted & it get's me nowhere. Like I'm invisible until needed.
With Samantha it's like, she walks all over me, and when I tell her she gets wicked defensive & starts arguing and bitching and whining. I try & show her how it's like and she does the same thing & with anything I bring up or notice or give my own opinion after her she gets mad at me. I don't understand how she can see al that as okat. But when we get along it's good. She changes things around so she doesn't get blamed when I know the truth. Uhg!
And Candice. . . I don't know. She's reallt complicating and I wish I could just crack her open so I know what she's hiding from me. I don't thinl she knows how much I care for her & that I would never intentionally hurt her.
I love you.
But I hate this life. I hate this damn city & I just want to go back home! I knew myself so well then! I'm not sure of who I am now! Everytime I think back to when I was in Maine I cry. . . like I am now. I don't know how I could have messed it up so bad for me the way I did. I miss the beach, and the school. How beautiful every season was and how each one had endless memories. I can't stand how FAKE so many people are. I don't want to change anymore. I want my old life back. I need you.
I LOVE YOU!
Alexandra Rngle
'I am a stranger in this place, and when I see you I can't turn away' "
That's it. Take it for how it is like how I take you.
"Chris,
uhg, hey. I am so stressed out I could cry. i need to see you so bad. I feel like I can't be trusted. . . and that I waste peoples time. I try really hard to be a good friend and I try and show (prove) I can be trusted & it get's me nowhere. Like I'm invisible until needed.
With Samantha it's like, she walks all over me, and when I tell her she gets wicked defensive & starts arguing and bitching and whining. I try & show her how it's like and she does the same thing & with anything I bring up or notice or give my own opinion after her she gets mad at me. I don't understand how she can see al that as okat. But when we get along it's good. She changes things around so she doesn't get blamed when I know the truth. Uhg!
And Candice. . . I don't know. She's reallt complicating and I wish I could just crack her open so I know what she's hiding from me. I don't thinl she knows how much I care for her & that I would never intentionally hurt her.
I love you.
But I hate this life. I hate this damn city & I just want to go back home! I knew myself so well then! I'm not sure of who I am now! Everytime I think back to when I was in Maine I cry. . . like I am now. I don't know how I could have messed it up so bad for me the way I did. I miss the beach, and the school. How beautiful every season was and how each one had endless memories. I can't stand how FAKE so many people are. I don't want to change anymore. I want my old life back. I need you.
I LOVE YOU!
Alexandra Rngle
'I am a stranger in this place, and when I see you I can't turn away' "
That's it. Take it for how it is like how I take you.